Road block in my level up journey
5 upvotes | February 20, 2021 | by ceedee21
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Hello. I am a 20f black junior in college. I returned back to my dorm
two weeks ago. Over my two month break I discovered FDS. Before
discovering FDS, I was kind of obsessing over the fact that I am 20
and have never had a boyfriend, or lost my virginity, or even so much
as had a guy look my way. Through FDS I am learning to start focusing
on myself and bettering/ healing myself so I can become the version of
myself that I actually want to. It was so much easier for me to do
this over break since I had no school work and no friends to talk to
(I'm terrible at making friends but I want to make better life lasting
friends). Moving back to school made that a bit harder for me cause I
had to adjust things.

I've mostly been focused on my physical appearance through clothes,
makeup and working out but I want to change my personality. I feel
like now I am very loud, energetic, and just not feminine at all. I've
been obsessing over this a bit throughout the past couple days cause
now that I'm back on campus and hanging out with my suitemates and
their friends and seeing that almost everyone is couples up and
fucking every night it makes me feel left out. Why doesn't anyone life
me? No one has ever liked me in my life and I'm 20! I was really
hoping that at least someone would've liked me. I've tried tinder last
semester and was too shy to meet up with anyone, then I got banned
from tinder. I don't like other OLD app as much so I've kind of
stopped.

I guess I really just want more tips on becoming more feminine without
just sitting there and nodding at everything that everyone says. And I
also wanna be less obnoxious so I can may attract more guys.

Thanks for reading.

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