Part of what steered me to TRP was taking those anti-depressants. One day I just looked at the bottle and thought, "What the fuck am I doing?" I threw them in the trash and began searching for a better way. Maybe they help some people in a genuine way but for the majority I believe it's a cop-out; Only used as a means of not dealing with the actual problem, yourself.
I over-escalated while we were watching a movie at my place. It got to the making out part, started taking off her clothes, and she stops me. Says she wants to wait, get to know me better. Honestly I was stumped by that. I tried several more times, knowing AWALT in the back of my mind, but every time she would stop me right as I was about to close. The level of playful teasing coming from her obviously showed me that she wasn't new to the experience. Probably a shit test though I have no idea ho…
I think I'm still wandering between the anger and depression phases but is it really too much to ask? Simple respect and an open mind seems like a pretty low bar to set in a relationship yet apparently that's unrealistic. These type of childish games they play bring nothing but misery to everyone involved and yet here we are learning how to play.