If a woman says "I had an abusive relationship" it can only mean two things: She is lying to whitewash herself. She is telling the truth but that means she has poor judgement since she was the one who had chosen this relationship and stayed in it in the first place. Either way, it's bad.
Your compensatory mechanisms are going haywire. With this level of strain on your psyche you should be seriously concerned. Have you been accumulating a lot of stress lately? Most peculiar. Clear projection, exagerrated, disinhibited. Either narcissistic or borderline, must be. Have you been consumed by thought of inadequacy? Is there something you can't come up to terms with and burying it?
you believe that tiers are distributed uniformly, and that therefore you should get a girl as from from the front of the line as you are. If you regularly pull 7s for sex, that makes you a 7. No comments.
Yet you somehow conclude that "if you can get a 7 half the time it makes you 6", which is obviously not true because women who are 7 would not go for 6, they would only go for 8+ because of hypergamy. You operate on a wrong assumption that women would be sexually interested in men of their own tier.
