I'm not depressed as in sad, I'm just in physical pain and bored/tired and on top of that, I barely eat anything nowadays except some bread. I hold no biological value since I'm not able to contribute to the reproduction chain, therefore my existence is unnecessary. Hopefully this universe is not an enclosed system, so I'm taking all possibilities into account.
It's called autism. I've tried to mask before but I kept missing romantic cues in dates and in private settings (bedroom). It's just a matter of "luck" because most of us can't get through the door unfortunately. This "life" (since it's all about reproduction anyway) is not worth living as a neurodivergent male.
It is the collective's fault because us autistic and disabled people never asked to be dragged into this neurotypical civilization in the first place, nor we're being granted an easy way out (euth...) since we often experience existence without life. In the times of Nazi Germany I'd be long dead already.
