I was the same way. Honestly the clear kind Noone noticed them. You get use to them. Best decision ever. I pulled from my savings to cover the cost. Do what you have to do but get it done!
Yep it is called 6 month smile but I took 9 because I grinded the bottom row off the month. Thought it was over at that point. Doc said don't give up so easy. He was right.
get your life to a point were you are not dependent on anyone but yourself. call your mum and dad and tell them you love them and get them something to remember you by. I got my ma a plant 10 years ago and its still alive on her table. my dad got a fishing reel and everytime he goes fishing (without me), he said he wishes I were their by his side. Do this and you will feel better inside, and people see this.