I feel like men should start reporting women for having absurd preferences. I don't know if it will work but it would be nice to see some of these women getting banned.
F*ck no! You sound a bit like myself but probably more successful and a tad bit better looking (debatable). It's all in your head. Not everyone lives there life the same. I myself have thought about killing myself (several times) but 1) I believe that I'll go to hell if I do, 2) I'd rather endure til the end, knowing that I didn't give up. I don't know what got you feeling so down but you need to stop having those kind of thoughts.
Yeah, I guess for the time being, that isn't bad. I hope you're serious about not wanting a LTR with her, even if she changes for God. She isn't LTR material for any Godly man.
I'm about to be 35, fat but decent looking. I'm still interested in a long term relationship, at least for a couple more years but I have high standards. Fix yourself up and then play around with them for a bit but if you don't find what you're looking for, just go monk.