Dude you just said it you’re self sabotaging just stop doing that. You’re going to hate this answer because I did back then but you need to work on yourself first and once you build yourself up you won’t have to chase. Once that happens the confidence will ooze out of you.
Or could it be that the black man got tired of her crap and left because she stopped working out and putting out along with her getting eve-more controlling and what you see it the result of a woman who progressively got worse by her own actions hmmmm
