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Thanks man, I should of known it earlier. For once in my life I tried to change and shit. She's from a Catholic family so I was blind and thought she's different. It fucking hurts me inside. Her best friend got to know me and we hang out occasionaly. She told my crush I'd be a good fit for her but I don't want to try again at all, I'll be a clown. This was like the first girl I was genuinly nice to without expecting anything back. Idk how to continue. Should I even chase my rap career? I was con…
/r/seduction31/07/21 08:51 AM
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Why wouldn't I take myself seriously? I have one life to live lol. And I always like making long posts, it's my style. More descriptive and shit.
/r/seduction30/07/21 11:28 AM
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Yeah man, she's a pretty girl but what use do I have of it if I'm mentally fucked. It's hard doing anything depressed, let alone pick up a girl, she'd sense sooner or later I'm fucked up. So yeah, when I'll be mentally and physically in shape, I might ask her for fun some day, but I want to reach y point where I don't give a fuck about her.
/r/seduction30/07/21 11:26 AM
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Mixed opinions from everybody. Yeah, pretty bad oneitis. Was just shocked to see such a good looking 17-18 year old tbh. I'll probaly go no contact september 2022/23. Until then I'll stay at the gym for a year and just say hello if I see her by chance. She also wants to bring the mutual friend of ours to sign up to the gym. That could make things a lot easier since we get along pretty well. It would be also very easy walking away. I'd attend CBT, fix my life eventually and continue living. But I…
/r/seduction29/07/21 10:59 PM
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Maybe she is worth it. Maybe not. She's hot, that I can see for sure. And if she's also good inside, bingo. I've heard of people contacting their crush after 6 7 years and things turned out great. Married and kids and shit. I'm not saying that's how it's gonna be AT ALL. I actually doubt it tbh. I'm just saying shit is possible. I escaped the friendzone in 2016 once with a girl. I need to fix my mental health, education, eat healthy, meditate, quit porn, exercise regulary and think about my futu…
/r/seduction29/07/21 10:04 PM
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Yeah? And did you make it through successfully? I hope you make it anyways! And funny I'm quite an attractive guy I just always fuck up with women. Usually it's not because of neediness, but because of pushing them away, running from them, behaving egotistical. This time, I showed her I'm the opposite, which I'm not. I'm not naturally a Mr Nice Guy and want to somehow prove it. I made myself look gay af. Like, they all want a bad boy until some kid from juvenile correctional facility who used to…
/r/seduction29/07/21 07:23 PM
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That's because I'm not. I'm not even going to the gym lately and we haven't seen each other in a long time. I became lazy because of my depression. And I don't really see other women even though I know a bunch. I'm not sure I can really 'break' the obsession on my own, she's in my head already and I need therapy. I can't really see if it's something I want until I go out with her. Why would I end up scaring her? It's not like I'm gonna push her into anything, I want the opposite. I want to actua…
/r/seduction29/07/21 06:47 PM
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Oh fuck yes. I went to 3 high schools and all were packed with 'hot' girls. But the 'hot' girls in my city are not actually hot, they're just cocaine sniffing, alcohol pumping, orange skinned 'bad bitches'. I couldn't talk to any one of them for 30 mins without losing my braincells. This one has that classic awkward, innocent and cute face with the body of a 25 year old at 18. Idk, she just looks like one of those special girls. And no, I can't just 'turn off' my oneitis, first I'll have to atte…
/r/seduction29/07/21 06:38 PM
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I don't know what's harder. Bailing or having the balls to risk again.
/r/seduction29/07/21 05:36 PM
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What respectful way? I was also a fat kid with ADHD and had to lose weight and improve myself. I said I admire what she's done for herself.
/r/seduction21/07/21 12:56 PM
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No, I meant she lost 30 kilos.
/r/seduction20/07/21 09:46 PM
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Shit man, that's smart, but there's no vending machines or anything similar in my gym. Too bad.
/r/seduction04/07/21 08:28 AM
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I don't think that's entirely true. The first chick I was into initially showed much interest. It's only after I fucked something up she rejected me.
/r/seduction03/07/21 09:31 PM
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I had a ton of female friends in high-school. Was not friendzoned, only wasn't interested romantically in them, because most of them were stuck-up chicks that wanted to take photos for Instagram with a table full of alcohol in clubs. Even though a lot of them were interested in me, I rejected all of them because I was the kid who 'kept it real'. Weed, rap music, etc. I still see some of them, although I've lost contact with most and for the last three years, I've been very socially inactive. Mus…
/r/PurplePillDebate01/07/21 08:46 PM
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Thanks man, your response is wonderful and encouraging. I guess I was really stupid at the time. I really thought I won't care AT ALL because I've read some stoic books and obviously misunderstood everything. Also, I didn't have any experience with dating. Well, maybe dating, but certainly not love. Love is a game and it's a pretty exhausting one. One wrong move and you can fuck everything up. I was fine on my own for 22 years, so I'll probably give up on love. But not on life. I have to keep be…
/r/PurplePillDebate01/07/21 08:18 PM
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I didn't even want to dump my emotions onto other people (and she asked me first) but I got rejected by this chick and wanted to be seen in a totally negative light by her because I just 'didn't care'. Months later, I still seem to care.
/r/PurplePillDebate01/07/21 08:02 PM
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I don't think it's gay, I will attend therapy as soon as I will be able to afford it, but I was wondering if anyone has similar experiences like this. Some guys at r/asktrp related to me, maybe there will be some here too.
/r/PurplePillDebate01/07/21 07:52 PM
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What's SMV, sorry? I'm quite new to TRP.
/r/askTRP16/06/21 02:41 PM
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It would certainly feed my ego and let the stuck-up bitches experience what I've have experienced. I'm also a person with huge anger issues, often get violent etc, maybe it's because of that.
/r/askTRP16/06/21 02:25 PM
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Thanks for replying. Just wondering, why do you think it would make me feel worse?
/r/askTRP16/06/21 02:18 PM
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Glad to hear that it gets better and that you're doing fine. I will work my ass off, because I know there must be light at the end of the tunnel. Some people say depression is always there, but I don't believe it, because nothing is permanent. And I don't want to feel hopeless because I want to build a better future for myself, finish my education, travel the world, raise kids etc.
/r/askTRP14/06/21 12:48 PM
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Do you consider yourself happy today?
/r/askTRP14/06/21 11:28 AM
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I don't drink alcohol, weed only rarely on weekends or something like that. After the high wears off, I feel worse usually. I work out now, but I should probably get back into school, will at least make me feel better of myself. Will read the books you recommended.
/r/askTRP14/06/21 11:24 AM
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Do you have any experience with microdosing shrooms? And I didn't know caffeine could have that much of an effect on my mood. Books recommendations welcome.
/r/askTRP14/06/21 10:59 AM
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Yeah, I'm hitting the gym 5-6 times a week, I am planning to get off antidepressants soon and start microdosing with psychedelics.
/r/askTRP14/06/21 10:57 AM
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Probably the combination of both.
/r/askTRP14/06/21 10:29 AM
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No, not gay, not asexual, although I don't have a high sex drive anyways. Why would I lie, it's anonymous anyways? I am depressed, so the last thing that's on my mind. Why would I waste my precious time on females? I have to get my mental health in check and learn a fun skill or activity in the meantime. What am I gonna do, impress her with fishing skills or something? Lol. Not everyone wants to improve just because of women, some do it for ourselves.
/r/askTRP13/06/21 11:55 AM
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I get your point, but inaction is not the case for me. At one period in my life, I only smoked weed, ate junk food and played video games and I was not depressed. Now I lift weights, occasionaly jog, meditate, etc and I'm still getting suicidal thoughts. By the way, which actions have you taken?
/r/askTRP12/06/21 04:11 PM
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What's mewing lol.
/r/askTRP12/06/21 04:10 PM
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Yeah, if you can recommend any quality books that would be cool. Didn't know pumpkin seeds have an effect of testosterone. Eggs? Don't really like the taste.
/r/askTRP12/06/21 04:08 PM
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I am improving my lifting form right now, I deloaded most of my weights. I will learn MMA, I want to know grappling and stand up fighting. I can change a tire and do some basic cooking, but I will improve in that area too. Will read the books you've recommended. I'm depressed because I've made some silly embarrassing mistakes with women, also had oneitis, did a lof of stupid shit that can't be fixed.
/r/askTRP12/06/21 08:02 AM
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Yeah, I thought so too but someone here on Reddit told me men with low test are more prone to depression, so I'll get it checkee, even though I have a lot of masculine features like facial & body hair, deep voice, etc.
/r/askTRP12/06/21 07:59 AM
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Damn, I must check it out. Thanks!
/r/askTRP12/06/21 07:55 AM
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For the sake of improving myself as a man. I want to increase my test because someone told me men with lower testosterone are prone to depression, even though I am 22 and have a lot of masculine features like facial & body hair, deep voice, etc.
/r/askTRP12/06/21 07:53 AM
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Yeah, I'll probably climb a hill for starters next weekend. Will be tough though, haven't done cardio in months and I packed on some unnecessary weight, also must quit smoking. I won't fully abandon my friends, you're right on that one, but I will dedicate significantly more time to myself. Depression sucks, I need to get rid of suicidal thoughts.
/r/askTRP12/06/21 07:51 AM
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I know how to handle a gun, but they're not legal in my country. So yeah. Will probably attend MMA.
/r/askTRP12/06/21 07:45 AM
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I don't care about women at this point.
/r/askTRP12/06/21 12:45 AM
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I had explicit confirmation though lol. You don't even know the whole story. As I've said, I've got witnesses to support my claims and I had a ton of drunken sex with girls and, as I've said, we always laughed it off. The only difference is this time she got caught by her daddy and made up a story that doesn't match the witnesses' stories at all. We were both irresponsible, and as I've said; false rape charge. Lessons learned for both of us.
/r/askTRP11/06/21 09:40 PM
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Try attending a Vipassana meditation course if there is one in your area. I am planning to do so.
/r/askTRP11/06/21 08:34 PM
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Hey, I relate with you on the suicidal part. I was pretty happy my entire life until I did some Beta shit and it spiraled me into severe depression, also have OCD. I am slowly getting better; I'm still depressed and I am also looking for advice on beating depression. But what is currently helping me is mindfulness meditation, lifting weights and eating healthy. I think like 90% of serotonin is in the gut, but I am no expert. Also read When Things Fall Apart by Pema Chondrom or The Power of Now b…
/r/askTRP11/06/21 08:06 PM
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This.
/r/askTRP11/06/21 05:28 PM
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I'm not from the USA and most of the successful musicians in my country are not really talented, so it's a bigger chance than that. Realistically, I've got like 10 years max to make my dream come true. I was writing and practicing heavily until I got depressed. Now my priority is fixing my mental health, meditating, working out, etc. Guess I'll work on that first and then see from there.
/r/askTRP11/06/21 06:43 AM
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Will go check my test levels.
/r/askTRP10/06/21 06:26 PM
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Yeah, I've began reading The Rational Male today, matter of fact. Heard it was a good book. If you can recommend any more, I would be grateful. I hope I make it through, the shame is overwhelming me right now. It's good knowing someone else was there at some point in their life. Thanks.
/r/askTRP10/06/21 06:24 PM
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Was thinking of taking shrooms to help me with depression, but I am afraid of taking them while in this state of mind. I did them several times though, but that was when I was perfectly happy.
/r/askTRP10/06/21 06:11 PM
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I don't pay for them and it seems they are helping me a little bit, not too much though. I have heavy psychological issues and not physiological. Must attend therapy. Also can't forgive myself for cringey beta moments.
/r/askTRP10/06/21 05:07 PM
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I don't smoke weed now that I got a new job.
/r/askTRP10/06/21 04:49 PM
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That's hilarious! Bravo! I didn't expect that from anyone!
/r/askTRP10/06/21 04:44 PM
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No, I've never had a meaningful relationship, I'm also disconnected from my disfunctional family. I only liked one girl in my life and she rejected me. Didn't know shit like this could hurt me. I thought I was indestructible. Idk anymore if I should bother with finding a woman or just be a loner and have drunk sex every now and then. I can't open myself to anyone ever again. Regretted it each time.
/r/askTRP10/06/21 04:17 PM
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Thanks for replying. I'll check my testosterone I guess. But my chest and even back are literally filled with hair. Idk how this shit goes though, not an expert. And no, I never had sex with anyone I had a deep connection with. Because I stopped looking for that deep connection, I don't believe in fairy tales anymore, I just want to do my business and fix my mental health so I can love myself again just like I did until a year ago. I don't even know how to reach happiness anymore, my mind is rac…
/r/askTRP10/06/21 04:05 PM
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Meditation and exercise. Not a medical professional, but smoke weed every now and then. I am not encouraging you to smoke pot regulary, but it just might be healthier than pills.
/r/askTRP08/06/21 02:28 PM
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Then I guess I should read David Goggins biography, it looks appealing to me.
/r/askTRP08/06/21 02:19 PM
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Yeah, planned on reading those. Thanks.
/r/askTRP08/06/21 02:19 PM
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Yeah, I don't exactly know why I want fame. I guess it's because I've never had shit. No money, no girls, rejected a lot, disfunctional family, etc. Always felt the need to prove myself so I said I'll either become a rapper on an actor. Always felt like my voice needs to be heard out there. Yeah, I'm planning to get off medication in 1-3 months max. And I know killing myself over this would be ridicolous, but depression fucking sucks and I was never depressed up to this point and suicidal though…
/r/askTRP19/05/21 11:30 AM
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We're kinda in the same boat. I thought I was alpha until reality hit me in the face hard. I had a lot of beta moments, you can check my history if you wish to. I suggest you start reading Marcus Aurelius or Seneca, or any of the stoic philosophers. I went so far with my mistakes that it spiraled me into severe suicidal depression and anxiety, so I will attend psychotherapy as soon as possible. Maybe you should adress your issues in therapy too. Sure, it costs money in most countries, but I thin…
/r/askTRP18/05/21 08:22 PM
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I never stated I want to commit suicide just because she ghosted me.
/r/askTRP18/05/21 05:22 PM
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Yeah, I'll find another job, that's not a problem right now since everything is opening in my country. I'm not self medicating (okay, maybe occasionaly). I got everything prescribed from my psychatrist, but as I've mentioned, I'll find a good therapist as soon as possible. I hope it will actually be efficient and not a bunch of bullshit. I've heard Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy is actually scientifically based and could help me out.
/r/askTRP18/05/21 04:05 PM
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Yeah, I believe you. The thing with me was, I was overconfident and I thought she will accept my attention no matter what. I relied on my looks too much, because I've packed on some muscle and changed my style in the recent years, but yeah, I fucked up.
/r/askTRP18/05/21 03:49 PM
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Ah, nothing, it was just some "cute" .gif I sent, because I was very immature and she is like four or five years younger than me. I treated her like a kid, but I had no experience, unless with older girls where I can actually maintain my mask on. Thought she was very innocent and all of that bullshit.
/r/askTRP18/05/21 03:45 PM
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Yeah man, I know what you're thinking, but I actually feel like nothing in the world brings me joy like rapping. I don't want to work for someone in some shitty company till the end of days. I care for both art and fame. When I was a kid, I was fat and rejected a lot because of my impulsiveness, emotional unstabilities and agression. Half of my childhood I was verbally bullied, the other half I started bullying others. So yeah, egotism has a lot to do with it. But the music industry pays good if…
/r/askTRP18/05/21 03:42 PM
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Yeah, will attend therapy as soon as I will be able to afford. On top of that, I failed a drug test because I was positive a coke at the job I really wanted to work at, so it will take me a little bit longer than expected to find a job. Do you have any experience with it? And you're right, I did nothing wrong and nobody is judging me as hard as I'm judging myself. Even the chick herself is still pretty kind to me, at least it looks like she holds no grudge against me. But you know hoe it is with…
/r/askTRP18/05/21 03:36 PM
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Thanks. I guess I'll have to take that route then. Or move away from women for a while to focus on my mental health. And thanks for the final thing, but sometimes I get overly emotional about situations like these because I tend to overthink everything 50p times a day. The OCD makes it way worse. I've started lifting after a long break, I guess I'll have to keep at it.
/r/askTRP18/05/21 03:30 PM
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Listen to Future.
/r/askTRP27/04/21 01:21 PM
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Yeah, I should really expand my social circles.
/r/askTRP18/04/21 10:02 PM
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Will do.
/r/askTRP18/04/21 10:02 PM
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I have been prescribed them.
/r/askTRP18/04/21 10:01 PM
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Why not lol
/r/askTRP18/04/21 04:58 PM
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Shit, to make things even worse I had a false rape charge several years ago. I've beaten the case and am thinking of suing the chick, but hell.
/r/askTRP18/04/21 03:48 PM
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Haven't ever heard of this poundmetoo movement. What's the catch?
/r/askTRP18/04/21 03:36 PM
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Lol okay
/r/askTRP18/04/21 01:29 PM
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Lots of useful advice. But it looks like I'll have to address my problems in psychotherapy (I am also depressed rn). I've also heard hypnotherapy does wonders for confidence.
/r/askTRP18/04/21 12:39 PM
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Yeah, but in the casino you gamble. Here, you actually work. It's not easy to become a good, noticed rapper at all and I like the hard route tbh. And as for the messages, I have lots of them.
/r/askTRP18/04/21 12:18 PM
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That's actually a good strategy. I'll play it off as a joke. Besides, by the time I reach the top, if I ever do, most of this shit will be long forgotten.
/r/askTRP18/04/21 12:16 PM
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Yeah, but I still can't show you anything yet, unfortunately. Besides, I'm taking a break because I have yet to decide if I'll pursue my goal or find a new one.
/r/askTRP17/04/21 09:44 PM
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I didn't upload anything anywhere yet and you wouldn't understand the language anyways.
/r/askTRP17/04/21 09:42 PM
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What do you mean by the Daft Punk route?
/r/askTRP17/04/21 09:37 PM
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Because I know that I can become one of the best, because I know I've got good lyrics and I live in a country where a regular job isn't paid shit and the stars here are having it good. And I want to be my own boss in life. I want to retire my parents, spread my message out through my songs, etc, etc. Did I mention tons of pussy? It's funny saying that; then all rappers like 50 Cent etc are betas.
/r/askTRP17/04/21 09:14 PM
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Why do you think it's blue pill to have dreams in life?
/r/askTRP17/04/21 09:07 PM
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You missed the point.
/r/askTRP17/04/21 08:47 PM
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I wouldn't say I exactly doubt it, I know my skills are good and can & will get better and nothing brings me more joy than writing lyrics and rapping, but the point is I lost all of my confidence to even begin.
/r/askTRP17/04/21 08:43 PM
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Fear and anxiety killing me.
/r/askTRP17/04/21 08:25 PM
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I don't think he's concerned about that at 16 years of age😅.
/r/askTRP17/04/21 03:42 PM
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That's eloquent.
/r/askTRP14/04/21 10:33 AM
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It's different.
/r/askTRP31/03/21 04:27 PM
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Lol we're actually in the same boat. I was blue pilled in one or two situations though, embarassed myself greatly in front of a few chicks and am still fearing this coming out if I ever make it big. Can't offer much advice, but try practicing mindfulness meditation or read books like The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck by Mark Manson and You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay (I have started reading the latter because of suicidal depression, but you can check it out). Otherwise, no clue what to do…
/r/askTRP31/03/21 04:04 PM
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That's the biggest problem I have. I can't stop giving a fuck what people think. And then I go out oversharing my personal shit. I'm too impulsive. Part of my worry what other people think of me is because I want to be a rapper and live in a small country and I am afraid of this coming out.
/r/askTRP31/03/21 10:20 AM
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Nah, I can't force her, it's just hard forgiving myself for all the embarassments and cringey shit I've said and done in the past, I had a real tough time learning from mistakes. And I know I could get her if I was behaving like I was supposed to. You can check my history on u/Back_To_Crack and see what I am talking about. I also strive to be a rapper and am anxious about the future or what people will think of me if this comes out.
/r/askTRP28/03/21 03:05 PM
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18 and I am 22.
/r/askTRP28/03/21 03:02 PM
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Yeah, I guess I'll have to move in that direction.
/r/askTRP28/03/21 03:01 PM
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Nah, I don't even want to kill myself but I am having trouble forgiving myself for all the cringey behaviors and embarassments from my past so my mind is telling me to kill myself, but logically I won't do it because it would leave a lot of people devastated,so I will probably attend therapy. Thanks for the reply though!
/r/askTRP28/03/21 03:00 PM
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Thank you for the reply. I was already at the psychiatric ward and am taking medication, will attend therapy soon. The thing is, I wasn't even together with this chick but I somehow can't stop blaming myself for exposing my vulnerabilities through cringey childhood stories and showing so much emotions in the past for someone who didn't even reciprocate back. She was an okay girl and the worst thing is, I could get her if I was being my authentic self. But what's done is done, the past can't be c…
/r/askTRP28/03/21 02:57 PM
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Yes, I want to break out of that cycle. That's exactly what I want.
/r/askTRP27/03/21 05:49 PM
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I am also suffering from oneitis and believe I will never again find a girl that I was infatuated with, so I can't be of much help, but you're not alonr. Try talk therapy and mindfulness meditation and all the best to you. If you're religious, pray. My crush is similar to what you described. She's a perfect ten, goes to church, is a virgin and is also very hard to get. It sucks, but we'll probably somehow get over it.
/r/askTRP27/03/21 05:44 PM
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I never listen to my brain man, I'm so dumb.
/r/askTRP14/02/21 07:07 PM
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It was a huge mistake in the first place for having a crush. And then behaving like that. But I'll get over it. With time in therapy, I am sure I will. Thank you for the support brother.
/r/askTRP13/02/21 02:38 PM
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Yeah man, I have to change. I have to really change. I went from Sigma to Beta and I can't see where it went wrong. Well, I can, oneitis obviously. But yeah, lesson learned.
/r/askTRP13/02/21 01:52 PM
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Frankly, I've had a false rape charge when I was 18 (I was dumb and on cocaine and filmed this chick while she gave me my BJ so she reported me) and I've told myself never to trust women again.. but in time, you forget what's happened and then I made an even worse mistake. I was always quite a smooth talker and socially intelligent but I never utilized it. I guess I didn't respect myself. EDIT: I am a very irresponsible person by the looks of it. I never learn from mistakes. Now I got badly burn…
/r/askTRP13/02/21 01:27 PM
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Yeah man, I'll get through it, thanks for the support. Biggest problem is I don't actually like girls that much. I'm not gay or anything but I'm not attracted to superficial 'bad bitches', I run from those. I like shy, cute girls with a bubbly personality because their vulnerability attracts me. And those seem to be in the minority today. I feel angry at myself for opening my heart to someone. EDIT: Thing is, I am considered high value by most, but now I feel like it has all changed.
/r/askTRP13/02/21 01:23 PM
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Problem is, I can't stop thinking about anything else. I think therapy might be able to solve this.
/r/askTRP13/02/21 03:30 AM
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What's sad is my whole neighbourhood and most of the people from my town considers me 'Alpha'. Except the one that needed to the most. But yeah, I was also very infatuated by the chick. EDIT: I'm not even a very emotional guy, well, I tend to hide it bcz trauma in childhood. I was being something I'm not an it boggles me a lot. Lesson learned, hardest way possible though. I still can't get her out of my head though...
/r/askTRP13/02/21 03:14 AM
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Yeah, man, it is what it is. Matter of fact, I wasn't even being myself. I'm not a very emotional guy. Well, I am, but I was good at hiding it bcz trauma in life. I did have a very fucked up mindset like "she rejected me, so I don't care what I'll say, I don't care what people think." I took it too literaly. Sad thing is, she was my type of girl. Religious, spiritual, goal-oriented, etc. Lesson learned. Too bad I didn't apply TRP earlier. Idk how to get her out of my head though. EDIT: I was a v…
/r/askTRP13/02/21 03:06 AM
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Do you maybe remember how long did it take for you to get? EDIT: This chick is still in my head.
/r/askTRP13/02/21 02:59 AM
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I'm one of those guys that had to severly traumatize himself (point of suicidal thoughts; and trust me, everyone would think of it in my spot) to understand the Red Pill. I'm trying to find forgiveness in myself for half a year for stripping myself of dignity. Didn't know where to stop. It is what it is. So yeah, I second this. Oh, and to OP, don't do it.
/r/askTRP13/02/21 02:54 AM
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Yeah man, I guess I was pretty beta for letting her get to my head. It's like... I feel my vulnerabilities are now exposed and I feel weak. Honestly and openly, I started feeling very inferior. But I believe in time, I'll get over it.
/r/askTRP13/02/21 01:28 AM
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Thank you for the reply. I was never really a nice guy but with this chick it was like 'she ain't like that'. Shit happens.
/r/askTRP13/02/21 01:25 AM
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Yeah I guess. And in the end, not every chick can see you as Alpha.
/r/askTRP13/02/21 01:21 AM
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What should I expect after the trip has ended? See, the point is I don't feel really good about myself right now, I have suicidal ideation, and as far as I know shrooms only amplify the emotions that you currently feel. The more I think of the mistakes I made, the more I hate myself. And I've also done other fucked up shitcin my life, it's not all backfiring on me. And I feel negative, negative, negative throughout my whole day. I wasn't like this, I was a normal boy, just a little naive, I just…
/r/askTRP26/01/21 07:57 PM
2

Yeah, the world doesn't spin around me or her anyways. I'll just need to find a way to leave the past behind. What kind of therapy do you recommend by the way? CBT? EMDR? Maybe a combination of both?
/r/askTRP25/01/21 10:51 AM
1

I was already thinking of taking them, but I'm scared to death because I am in a negative headspace. Don't know what to expect.
/r/askTRP25/01/21 10:10 AM
2

Yeah, I mean that's the only way out of it.
/r/askTRP25/01/21 09:55 AM
3

I wish you all the best in life.
/r/askTRP25/01/21 12:18 AM
2

Shit man, I actually feel a sense of slight relief knowing that I wasn't the only one to go through this. I'll probably move to another country, since I am used to living on my own since I was 19. Yeah man, exactly, I'm too emotional. That's the root cause. I have this tendancy (sorry if misspelled) to be too open to people. Or too closed off. I need to find the balance within. I guess I'll get over it somehow. Maybe it all came from my childhood where I was always yelled upon and told I am not …
/r/askTRP24/01/21 10:22 PM
1

It goes deeper than that.
/r/askTRP24/01/21 10:04 PM
2

To make all of this even worse, I heavily exaggarated everything and made up a lot of shit that didn't even happen. I didn't stay true to myself and since I am a heavily conscientous person it took a toll on my mental health. I guess that's what you get when you play with someone's mind. Eternal suffering. I didn't value and appreciate my own unique characteristics along with the stuff I already had. I acted like a God and even though I was a helpful and sincere person. Now I don't even know if …
/r/askTRP24/01/21 09:09 PM
2

Nope, isn't the answer. I have a pretty high testosterone.
/r/askTRP24/01/21 05:44 PM
-6

I don't see how that could help me, but I appreciate your opinion. You probably don't understand the human mind as well as I do, at least not from my point of view.
/r/askTRP24/01/21 04:21 PM
1

I don't know, because it ruined the image of the person I once was, the worst thing is, if I had done everything right I would of actually get that girl. And I did total beta shit, I've opened myself to the wrong people and it has been used against me because she and her family now see me as an enemy and a creep and I don't know if my ego can take that. It's haunting me because she's always in my head. Can you maybe explain what happened in your case? EDIT: OP here, other acc.
/r/askTRP24/01/21 04:09 PM
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