I am 16, half-Hispanic, and have autism, I want to study in Mexico, Guatemala, and Spain, and get a job in IT and move to Latin America.

The reason I want to be in IT and move to Latin America is because I heard a lot of autistic people like computers and I have always wanted to live abroad, I also have family in Mexico too.

However, I have felt extremely unfocused on my goals and have extreme depression due to my autism and the fact I read a lot of feminist and MRA content.

I feel like I can’t live as an autistic male, that autism makes it too challenging and I can barely do anything, that I am a socially awkward loner who deserves to die.

The average neurotypical man and woman can do many things while us autistic people can’t do anything.

I feel awful because I am afraid I will be viewed as a misogynist if I end up being single and no partner.

I read a lot of content from MRA’s and feminists and it causes me to have extreme depression and irritation or anger, I can’t help but feel I don’t deserve empathy from people and no one knows me.

It’s like I am invisible to everyone and no one knows who I am, I always think negatively.

I feel like reading what feminists and MRA’s say only makes me feel women are the enemy and that they are out to get me, and that no one cares for me because I have autism and extremely depressed.

I honestly feel like killing myself for being autistic, people have zero empathy for me, and I can’t achieve my goals, I hate that I wasn’t born normal and that I am invisible to everyone.

How do I avoid killing myself and feel better about being autistic?