I'm sorry but I don't know where else to go. This is an alt. I found this sub after I was -i thought- on my way to marriage.

I literally nursed this man to.health. His sickness made his life spiral down to nothing and we taught each other so very much during his recovery.

We fell deeply in love. I know he is struggling and still needs help. Maybe -i thought- to mask his insecurity... It makese feel so stupid to say it.

I shared something with him and he jokingly or to save face -i thought- threatened to "blackmail" me.

I have him A THOUSAND DOLLARS to help him back on his feet.

A couple weeks went by, normal and loving-

He calls and says I missed my payment. Or else.

This is no way to ask for a favor.

I say no and today I am fired and charged with a victimless professional crime.

I don't know what to do.

I've had a couple drinks.

I feel so used and worthless.