Dating - in this journey of finding a companion, and yet I am feeling so alone.

I kinda now get why this channel preaches "not to get into Casual relationship". After being in a casual relationship for 2 months 5 dates, with a single Dad, whom I find so charming, and intelligent, and his annoying pommie-ness. I find myself overinvesting.

Probably a disjointed expectation and reality of what this casual relationship entail. Have you ever kinda go out of a casual date (with him being affectionate to you), and then you go out of the date, feeling a little crap, wondering if he will call you for the next day, because it's not really a relationship....

Yeah... I am stuck in that pit. I know I need to get out.

A casual relationship doesn't work for someone with high anxiety. It doesn't work for someone who overanalyzes. It works for someone who is clear and confident of what they want and need, maybe for a normal person (one or two dates). I had expected the relationship to end after I slept with him on the second date, (I know... that's a big no no)...

But of course he reached out, then you start hoping for more. Then my anxiety kicks in, over his messaging, over his affection to me, over who initiates the dates. It's killing me.

The thing with casual relationship, it allows you not to fixate on one, all your attention on one... But it doesn't work for someone like me, who have an anxious attachment - wanting to please everyone, even the shittiest of people.

It clouds your judgement after a while. The whole casual dating scene... Cause that casual person gives you that brief euphoria for a night... but then you also feel that emotional blank when you throw yourself out there when dating others.

I told myself that I was trying to fix myself after my long term relationship break up, so maybe this casual relationship may work just as well for me?

It doesn't ... It really doesn't... Maybe the route to fixing myself, is finding myself, what things mean to me, what are my values.

Sis... Don't do casual dating... Someone is going to get hurt... It's often the women, cause we are affectionate creatures. Men can separate sex, feelings and relationships. We can't...

Buy yourself a dildo, it ll save you so much heartache.