Now don't get me wrong, never will I settle for a LVM. But lately I've been feeling like I'm not a HVW either.

It started when my last ex-boyfriend broke up with me. We were great together and he was a HVM for sure. I cheated on him, not because he was lacking in bed and he also made me feel loved and happy. I think it was mostly for the thrill of it. It was with a guy from work and I have no idea how my ex found out but he did. I could tell he was disappointed with me. He said he needed a few days to think. A couple of days later he texted me that he still loved me and that he would give me a second chance. I was literally so glad.

Meanwhile at work I came clean with the dude and told him it couldn't continue and he agreed and told me he had a girlfriend as well.

But the dynamics in our relationship had changed. I could tell he was trying but he couldn't quite get over it. This became a struggle in all kinds of aspects of our relationship. Seeing him like that made me depressed. I felt like we both deserved better than what we had so I broke things off with him. He just left without saying anything and I haven't heard anything of him since. After I got over it some guys (LVM) had crept in my DMs, they must have heard I was single again. They were so scummy. I blocked them. And it made me think the right guy wouldn't just present himself like that. Now I haven't gone out looking for Mr. Right yet. But I don't know if I deserve him anymore.

Has any of you ever felt the same?