Whenever I talk to a girl one on one I cant help but feel some vestiges of emotion and attraction my attempts to go MGTOW fail and I feel mad at myself for being unable to let go. I want to avoid this at all costs but platonic I'm unable to be and the only way I can not feel something towards a liking is if she is either my sister or her friends hence extended sisters other than that nada. Except ofc women I dislike who might be outwardly attractive but I still feel absolutely nothing towards them. Now I dont want to carry a pot of hate and negativity that I focus on all day and ruin me. So i want to maybe keep a small torch of that hate in my corner somewhere burning like an Eternal flame protecting me from the onslaught of these thoughts and equalizing all the influences so that I'm perfectly apathetic towards women