Ok, guys. I need some help. I got out of the Marines in 2013 and went right into school for IT. I graduated in the spring of 2016. Since about winter 2016 I have felt lost and unfilled. I mean, I have a good life. I don't have drama. I make good money. I have a good job.

The last year has been bad. I am to the point that the least little thing will set me off. I feel stressed out and exhausted all the time. In December I started seeing a head-doc for depression. I don't know if it is from the feeling of being lost and unfilled or the PTSD I have from Iraq. These feelings seem to be growing and I find that I spend a lot of time thinking about them. Trying to reason out why I feel this way. I have nothing.

I have two friends that I have talking to about this. One (blue pill) says that I need to find a "nice girl" to marry and have kids with. He does not understand when I say, the path I am on would is less painful than getting married again. The other friend says I need kids. In his defense, He has a few and enjoys them. I don't have the heart to tell him, I don't what any resource gobbling fuck trophies. Don't get me wrong, kids are fun and good. As long as someone other then me pays for them and changes their shit catches.

They made two points that they feel are importation. One, I don't have many friends. They are right and I like it that way. I don't like most people. Two, I lose interest fast in new hobbies and ideas. This is true. for example, I lose interest most video game before I beat them. What all that means, I don't know.

I guess my question to you guys is, Have you ever gone through something like this? How did you get out of this? How did you find meaning in your life?

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Thanks for your time.