When I was young, I wondered why adults were so mean and full of bitterness. I promised myself to preserve my childish heart for as long as I could.

Marriage and relationships are prisons. The older I get and the more I observe the relationships of my close friends, the more I understand that a man's life is about creation.

One of my friends recently told me how his view on relationships changed. His urge to be with her steadily declines and he only sees his GF once a week.

At that moment I understood that every man has a natural longing for more and a natural longing for freedom. We want to explore the world and expand our horizen.

Sadly most men never reach a point where they can afford their passion. I am single and never had a GF. There was a period of my life where I left my old social circle and yet didn't find a new one.

At this time I discovered so many hobbies which changed me in a way, relationships could never do. I can be alone for weeks and people often wonder why I am so comfortable at getting things done alone.

A man who has ambition will never face poverty. You will never reach a situation when you are broke.

Single men are rich men, botch spiritual and financial. I see it more often then not. A guy who used to train in my gym did his degree in mathematics. He got a good job pretty fast and now I just see him going every weekend at high end clubs, restaurants etc. He is living well.

And he is single. How often do you see fresh graduated single male academics, living a wealthy life until they got hocked?

Hell we all know how the tragedy goes: young average dude gets no attention from women. Study and maybe train , get a degree and a nice paying job, boom got hocked. And we all know how fast a 28 something wants a child the moment they find a provider.

I am still fairly young, but I am about to become an adult. I see the changes in my social circle and the people around my age. They get more and more serious, tired and traumatized by life. They laugh less and complain more. They become more negative and it is shocking how scared they actual are.

I see their sheep mentally getting stronger and stronger. I notice how my parents try to mold me into a perfect worker drone, since they see that I am giving zero fucks about social norms and conditioning.

To be honest, we live in a sheep society and I can't say whether I am a wolf or just a black sheep. My biggest fear is to get my dreams out of sight because in my daily life I am far too long in the matrix. Since I started my journey, I discovered my true self. But the more I understood myself, the more conscious I got about the facade I was wearing. I would lie if I tell you that I don't pretend to be someone else every time I got outside my room. Fact is that as long as I am not living in a forrest for my own, I will always pretend to be someone else. As long as I am aware of that, I am okay with it. Still it is sad to know that you can't talk about TRP and MGTOW in public.

What I learned so far though, is that speaking up for myself, never got me into trouble. Or maybe I'm to ignorant to see the big walld I am heading,till then I will try to be who I am and walk my path.

The dices have already fallen. Nothing can be changed. I choiced my path.

Peace out.