So Im been to a Christain gathering today and met someone I chatted 2 years ago in a Christian dating site. She is still single because she likes a more traditional guy and still waiting for the trascon man. She is traditional. So I think she is still virgin but she is met the wall long ago. She 34.

But she is look like 29, petite and look cute. She seems sweet also according to those that met her.

When I look at her. Its not lust that I felt. Its just like I want this person. She's cute and small and maybe have a good personality as I hear them.

So I got this rush of blue pilled tradcon, destiny feeling, meeting a person in coincidence. To be honest Im smiling high in blue pilles state. That a hope that this wife matierial is in sight. And a good family.

I haven't jack off in 2 months now. Is that it is the blue pilled feeling blocking the red pill?

Help me in my senses guys.

PS. I write this now because Im in a blue pilled state. I haven't felt this for long before. So I just write it early on.