I just needed to vent. Went to a trip to Europe, found out family is shit. People treated me kinder than my file ever did. Wound up finding a long lost uncle in Spain. Falling in love in France(just a moment, now I'm over it). So now I've quit porn and no more masturbation now for 10 days. So far I've found motivation and a reserve of what seems to be never ending energy. Good luck to you all!