I’ve been trying to see the positive to help me deal with a bad mental state resulting from having no hope and not finding participating in this society as Inherently rewarding anymore.

It’s so fucking frustrating to see constant bluepill shit and not be able to voice the truth. It’s also incredibly lonely and makes me not want to spend any time with like anyone. How can you bond with people you cant be honest with or can’t be yourself? Well, there’s no red pill alternate society I’d be living in right now so my options are being blue pulled or red pilled. It’s honestly somewhat of a cheat code and advantage over others and I won’t get blindsided by divorce or love ever again. It sucks I got to mask parts of myself or even lie and won’t probably ever find love again (my life time dream), but It’s better than living a lie unknowingly and is still a more truthful life. I also will be a stronger, self sufficient, happier person in the long run once I accept things as they are. Kids and a loving wife would’ve been hard but a worthwhile endeavor, but marriage hasn’t been worth it since men lost autonomy over the household and society. We still got sweet tech in our day to day lives making our day to day survival essentially guaranteed, we don’t have to construct our lives around women anymore, and we have more free time. It’s hard to define your self, your purpose, and your life when you’ve never been encouraged to let alone taught how to and it’s goes against what simps and women want so they shame you. It’s hard, but it’s the only way to self actualize and be free.