I don’t know about you guys, but sometimes I hit these periods were I get depressed. It mainly stems from how the blue pill was a lie and how disappointing the female gender really is. I would’ve love to have kids, play around with them, teach them about life. But that’ll never happen because of AWALT.

I’ve been trying to see and test if AWALT is true or not, trying to subtly question some female colleagues. In short, it’s true. They settle for what they can get, they find a beta who treat them like a Goddess even if he wasn’t their first choice.

So if AWALT, then I have to figure out another vision for myself, another path towards self fulfillment. It’s hard to be alone, especially when you have blue pilled friends proclaiming that there’s a girl over the rainbow that’ll bring you joy.

Sorry for the rant, just in this limbo stage where I’m still trying to accept the Red Pill as the true way in life.