Well she is not my girlfriend yet, but I have been talking to this girl. This is the first time I reached this level with a girl in my life.

But the problem is that she is so boring. I know it is not a case-specific thing, I know all women are like this. But I don't even know if I want to get into my first relationship or not. The only reason I am even talking to her is because I wanted to finally have sex for the first time. I loath talking to her and try to procrastinate every time. I have to do all the work: it is as stimulating as talking to a mirror. I know love is bs, she will end up cheating on me or something, I don't really care about her, I just want to have sex with her. But it is just so hard to talk to her. When I was younger I liked talking to girls on the internet, they thought I was funny and I could make them laugh and stuff, but at this point I don't even have desire/motivation for that anymore. I don't know what to do. Is all this effort worth it for sex.