My family wants me to marry. From a young age, I never really spoke with girls or hung out with them. Not because I was shy or anxious around but rather they never seemed to be interesting outside of their physical appearance. For awhile I felt an infatuation with gorgeous women but never approached them because I figured "are they really worth approaching just because I think they are hot? Is that a good enough motive?". So I put myself through uneccessary suffering because of my infatuations. I had not yet know about female nature up until a couple months ago. Now I am at peace, I always told my parents I wouldn't get married or have kids because truthfully I never saw the point of it. My suffering is now gone and I live in bliss.