When i was a kid there was this brazilian TV show on sundays where a lot of hot ladies would appear almost naked. There was this game where they'd put a guy and a girl inside of a bathtub and they'd fight to grab soaps from the all foamed bathtub. It was highly sexualized and back in that day we had no censorship for boobs. And they'd appear a lot. Because the bikini almost "accidentaly" slip, showing boobs and nipples.

That was my first introduction to porn.

That bullshit by itself alone formed an entire generation of whores and frustrated masturbators.

Girls wanted to be fucked by those muscular rich guys they saw on TV.

Guys wanted the same regarding the girls.

An entire generation defined by one fucking TV show. Hedonism. They all wanted the sex and the feelings it provided, and while some male and female succeeded in getting what TV told them to wish for, and others frustrated with themselves and life resorted to masturbation and dating all kinda of assholes that at least looked like what TV teached them to like - There were never winners in this story. They were all becoming slaves to their own desires, either you were a guy masturbating 5 times a day on xvids or a girl getting an STD from a muscular drug dealer. Or either you had the perfect relationship to post on instagram and facebook. They were all motivated by the same mistake - The idea of getting fucked or fucking someone hot and celebrity like.

This sounds stupid, shallow, pathetic. And yet it doesn't make it any less true.

I have spent years investigating and i have finally cracked this. Not because i'm special, not because i have special gifts. But i do have something.

The company lady contacted me on whatsapp a few years ago and asked me to take a survey about their services. One of the questions were;

"What do you think of our company"

I told them; "Well, it's a company like any other"

And she replied "No! We are the only one with offices in Japan"

My response; "Well, every company are unique in some way, and that equates them in them and their uniqueness"

She had no argument after that.

Well, in highschool i wanted to be an investigative journalist but i couldn't go to school because my mother inverveined; "You would have died before your 30's if you went on that path" she told me years later.

She was fucking right. I would have died. I would have thrown so much shit on the fan that somebody would have killed me already.

I'm not telling this to brag. What i'm saying is that i couldn't let that go. I kept investigating and posting shit on the internet. Even tho i didn't have a degree or credentials. It never stopped from doing what i was supposed to do. I just kept being who i was regardless of what anything.

I wasn't supposed to learn English either. Never lived in a english speaking country, never took lessons, never even had any english-speaking friends and yet here i am. Writting an entire fucking wall of text in this foreign language as fluently as i'd be writting a portuguese text.

But i'm not special. I'm just a man. And not even the stupid media or my mom could stop it. And i'm 100% positive that EVERY male in this subreddit has a talent. A gift. A gift that might have nothing to do with their majors or their spoken words about themselves. A talent that has nothing to do with the built up talents these bullshitical universitives tell them they have.

"Oh you now have an English major congratz you're a language guy"

Well, i'm a high school drop out who speaks 3 languages and never even took a class. Who's the real deal here, you who's nothing but a product in a business "the paper straw business" or me? Who actually have a thing for language? Fuck off you're just a fucking fraud. You're the victim of a entrepeneurship. And you're in debt dude.

My mom told me "Go to CS school" and if i had, i would have been a hack too. An imposter. Cuz i have no talent for that shit. I'd be just a product in a shelf. A makerting campaign tool "Oh i'm a cs major" - Oh i can feel the made up respect just typing that sentence.

This is gonna sound offensive to a lot of school goers here. Suck it up. It's the truth. And the sooner you recognize the sooner you can become free from this aspect of the bullshit-society.

The entire media is aimed at selling shit. Remember the half-naked girls in that TV show i talked about? Clothing industry, car, make up, fitness, food, an entire business conglomerate benefitting from what TV told us to believe. (I'm talking about Brazil but every country works this way)

Why is making a movie so expensive? Because information and how you frame it is the most powerful weapon. If you have the mic you have the power. Winners tell the story... That old same shit. They must make sure that only them can do it. If you can manipulate an entire generation into doing what you want - That's real power.

It's the same reason they kill whistleblowers and investigative reporters.

Oh, you think that's over? No. Getting to wonderland is just the first step. When you dive into your subconcious to explore the bullshit that's been put in there for decades, that's when you sleep.

The philosophy technique is this; When you read something that althought you can understand what the words are saying but can't grasp the techniques, it means your subconcious don't know what that information entails. When you have gone throught situations and had experiences that sticked in your subconcious and then you read something and resonates with that - Well - What's happening is that the words are bringing to the conciousness what remained unconcious. And that's what you call "truth" -- "They, that's so true, that's spot on" - But you didn't consider that yourself even tho you knew it. Deep down. see? That's the word we use. "Deep down i knew it" - It means you unconciously knew it but you couldn't bring to conciousness.

So, the philosopher lives. He puts himself in the position to live situations. Like Socrates would randomly annoy people on the streets asking about shit, or Nietzche who spent his days alone getting high on opium and enduring pain for the sake of investigation.

Now, once the philosopher lives, his task is them to bring all that shit that was stamped on his unconcioussness to conciousness - in other words - writting shit down.

"Oh but weren't you an investigator? Now you're philosopher" - Yes. I'm an investigator, and even when i was trying to get into CS, arts, even when i learned english or japanese, or whatever else i learned. I never became an artist or a computer scientists or whatever...Because my essence was always of investigating shit. I was investigating what CS was about, how it worked, what it accomplished, how CS people behaved, what were their mindset, their motivations, and i could never become a CS guy. Or an artist. Because i entered this things with the mind of an investigator and all i wanted to do was exactly that. Investigate the shit out of it. You can't change your essence. If you are a performer who tries to get into CS, you're going to take the job as a performance. If you're an artist and tries to get into CS, you're going to try and make art out of it. If you're a mathematician and tries to get into CS, you'll probably be drown to math-related computer stuff and you'll try to make math out of it. If you're a warrior, you're gonna turn CS into a war field. If you're a leader. No matter what the fuck you do you'll always be a leader. You see what i'm saying? You can't change who you are, you can do many different activities and play different fields but you'll always bring who you are to anything you do.

A philosopher is a guy who investigates life. And in order to investigate life, he investigates himself, unless you can turn an entire nation into a study field via internet data mining. That's my case. So, yes, all these perspectives came from me investigating myself. Putting myself throught all kinds of situations and then sitting down later on to bring all that stuff to my conciousness - Writting shit down.

Can you see where i'm going with this?

Internet is not reliable. It's investigating us at all times. Be it facebook, reddit, any other websites. Even a place like this, like r/mgtow is not free from the underlying algorythms.

Even if you're talking face-to-face, our godamn fucking cellphones and eletronic devices are listening to us. (NO, it's not a fucking conspiracy theory)

There are a couple safe places; real mail & talking face to face in a place with no eletronic devices nearby.

But to be honest, if you dig little deeper into it, the only real safe place is inside your own self. That's where real changes can happen. And once you become able to "see yourself" - that's when you can change. And that's when you can bring others with you.

"Know thyself, and you shall know the Gods and the Universe" - Keep digging fellows. Self-knowledge comes at a price. And i believe you can't "read yourself into knowing yourself"for whatever you read, can only resonate if you already have that inside of you.

Oh and don't take a single word of what i said as truth. For only YOU can know your own truth. It doesn't mean i'm lying. It just means our truths might differ.