I walked the path of MGTOW. I was a strong follower in the philosophy, then my mind was changed for some time.

My whole life (19 years) I've never had a relationship with a woman. I've had only bad sex and I'm just utterly depressed right now. I just feel so alone (romance wise) because I've never had it before. I've never had a woman that I could hold and love.

I'm also suffering from some oneitis, though not as strong as it was a couple weeks ago.

I was planning on going to college this September but I realized that by getting an education and working a 9 to 5 I would become a drone. I dont want to be a drone and I dont want to be a simp. I want love but i want money. I want money but not be a drone.