I used to be a mangina male feminist, I woke up but still BP.
I did watch Sandman's videos but only as anti-feminist. I live in a Middle Eastern country, the law favors men but socially and romantically women are doing way better.
I got purple pilled, but only thought that legistlated gynocentrism only applies to the west.
I have zero experience with females, but I talked to many men who are or were in relations, I took the red pill and came to the conclusion that AWALT are entitled, here men have to pay for everything and if a guy has no real estate property here, then good luck finding a wife/gf, but here women offer nothing in return only sex and romantic attention. Even if a woman has a job, it is still her man's responsibility to pay the bills,taxes and other basic needs, and she gets to keep the money she makes to herself or spend it on useless shit like shopping.
I am a virgin, prostitution is illegal where I live, but I don't think sex is worth it, porn is legal.
I am focusing on improving my self, like working out 6 times a week and eating healthy to get rid of my beer belly for medical reasons (I am in my early 20s), I quit drinking because booze hinders my progress.
The gym is making me feel more confident.
I deactivated my facebook account, I used to post every day just to get likes or seek validation to boost my ego, but I thought about it, social media is not just useless but problematic and kills confidence just a popularity contest.
I am slowly not giving a fuck about what others think, and putting the vagina on the pedestal is a waste of time.
But I am having red pill rage, I feel angry at the world, media, society, schools, and Disney Princesses for lying to me. They lied to me, I wasted all my energy white knighting for hot girls especially the girl who I still have oneitis.( My rage is quite similar when I left Islam to atheism.)
Allow me to get paranoid here, I think the status-quo run by the banking & corporate elite socially engineered us to enslave humanity and cause chaos.
I need help to alleviate my anger.
Thanks in advance.
The System is not broken, it was built this way