I have a specific type of woman in terms of looks. This morning I saw 2 of the most incredible sexy looking women I have seen in a very long time. Both brunettes with slamming bodies. They were both wearing short skirts, had great legs and they were both beautiful in the face. My cock throbbed and then it was as if my brain short-circuited because this is how all my relationships began.

I would be drawn to a beautiful, sexy woman and we would begin chatting and she would do all that shit with her body language to let me know she was interested. We'd hang out some then end up fucking like crazy and then I would be in it, in her clutches and at first it felt like the most amazing feeling in the world and then there would be very obvious red flags which I would ignore and then in a matter of months she would be stamping her mark on me and I would be fucking owned totally.

I would be absolutely miserable and even the fact when I would walk into a room and all the guys around me wanted to fuck her and all the women wanted to be her, that wasn't enough. I would know that the person she projected out to the world and the one I knew and lived with, was totally different. Poles apart.

So, back to this morning. My cock was throbbing and starting to rise and I just saw what they were. Poison. I knew then a deep shift had occurred because these 2 women, looks wise, were the pinnacle of what I liked and yet I couldn't wait to avert my eyes and get away from them. I knew what they were. Totally empty vessels and a world of pain should that avenue ever be explored again.

My ex gf was a stunner when I first met her and I look back on those times now and I don't even know who that person was because aside from that first couple of weeks, that person never emerged again. I am fast coming to the conclusion that women are simply professional (yet totally legal) con artists. It's all trickery. Smoke and mirrors.