So I get the whole don’t fight other peoples war perspective. But being MGTOW makes me kind of want to join the military just to go shoot and blow stuff up. Im in my early 30’s and good health. If I get blown up in the process, no big deal either. This whole system is screwed anyways. Why not? My social circle is so small its depressing and I’m not willing to go back to living a fake life either. Also been divorced and wife moved out of state with my two sons who I rarely get to see anymore. The constant under current of pain has made me numb to most things in life. I don’t consider myself to be depressed either. Just want something different, I want to feel alive again and feel dead inside (but not depressed). Im thinking if I live closer to death I can feel alive again?