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My fiancé got super drunk last night. Him and his brother were talking/arguing over a fight they had a few years ago. He was very drunk, crying, so I said it was time to go home. When we reached our home I insisted I will take our baby daughter out of the car as he could barely walk anymore, with me pushing him out of the way. He slapped me lightly which angered me. When we got inside the house our dog made a mess everywhere. He started cleaning it but I insisted I take over because he had stepped on it, all over his feet. He immediately said “let me do it or ill hit you” me being angry and annoyed about him being stupidly drunk, i said “do it!” Then so he did. He slapped me hard in the face. Then I grabbed my daughter and went to the bedroom. He came in and I begged him to sleep downstairs because he might trample our 9 month old daughter and he punched my bottom really hard that I cried in pain. I tried to leave the house, I really wanted to leave but my daughter was crying so hard from exhaustion as it was already 1am. So we ended up sleeping in the cold basement.

In the beginning of the relationship, I would say I was the abusive one because I would always argue with him going out with his friends. I was a teenager and he was my first real boyfriend. I would hit him when I’m angry which I know, was never okay. However, I only hit him out of frustration. Also I didn’t think I could inflict pain as I am only 4’11 and he is 6’4. But my point was, I hit him before and now it’s karma for me?

We always argue about the stupidest things. And I know that we don’t get along because we are always having little arguments everyday. When he gets drunk, which is like every week. Most times he just passes out. But sometimes, he could get violent and start calling me names or grabbing me by my shirt.

We’ve been together for 11 years. Since we were 16 years old. We are getting married next month, big wedding and very expensive! I dont know what to do. He is a very loving when sober and a very good father to our daughter. He just txted me saying he didnt know what he did last night and that if I could forgive him. It was the first time that I was scared of him and I was so scared of him he might accidentally hit our daughter.