Lol

Almost everywhere I look, including feminist spaces, I see the idea that males are beyond repair, that males will always act like this, that males will never know any better. I see conservative people and radfems say the exact same thing about men, the difference being that the former justifies male domination with that idea. As a woman who is strictly physically attracted to men this paints a very gloomy picture of what my future sex and love and professional life will be like. I am exhausted. I'm so so so fucking exhausted. I'm exhausted at having to have my guard up all the time. I'm exhausted because I will never get to truly relax in the presence of men. I'm exhausted at thinking about how my relation to a man will always be me gripping tightly at a leash around his neck, lest he breaks away and does something bad. I want a world where my relation with men is NOT strained and tense and coloured with fear. I want a relationship to be the source of PEACE for me. I want both the man AND I to have each others backs. I'm so so fucking depressed, angry, lonely, and pessimistic, and even radical feminism isn't helping with my self perception as a woman.