I intially posted this on r/stopgaming but i think this might be better. I have been gaming for the last 13 years, but due to like 5 things going wrong in the last few months I am trying to stop and get a job. 1. My father has been retrenched 2. My brother is being bullied and victimised at work 3. My socalled friends both used me as stepping stones and have now cut ties. 4 I turned 30 a week ago and 5 my father is drinking and starting his shit 6. My mother is an ignorant bitch. This is day 4 and hearing my brother speak about the bullying is making me feel sick. I fisted myself in the head because i know my brother deserved a better sibbling. I am shaking i know the only way to change my life is to stop but I was goggling games and want to downed witcher 2 in 4 hours when my new data comes in. I wish I was dead. I have never worked since 2008 when i finished shcool and worked at an accounting firm for 2 weeks. At the end there was an induction and the guy in charge humiliated me so badly i am scared to ever work.