I'll try keep it simple. Met a 30 yr old girl 2 years ago, we "hit it off" I'm 29 currently I was perfect for for her, she seamed very nice and had a great set of tits too. Regardless she had that I'm a traditional family girl thing. We become a couple. Made the biggest mistake and best learning decision of my life buying a house with her. (Not married) From then her true nature revealed itself, the immense control, jealousy and possessiveness. Spending time with my friends would send her into a flying fit. Like the exorcist getting up and doing the backwards crab walk type shit. (Legit happened) Spending money on a haircut. Or anything I would want (She'd hate it when I took care of myself to look decent) Mind you I work 70 hours a week and should be happy that....she's happy and we have a home? So to not fight I did the worst thing any man could do. We don't want stress, we don't want to fight so we let them have their fuckhead way.

Dumb fucking move. I'd get guilted on everything that didn't suit "our" goals. And I would believe it. She had this uncanny ability to manipulate and use emotional blackmail, love was very conditional. It was getting to a stage where I was becoming someone completely different. Gaslighting was fkn standard. We'd have an argument and she's replay the argument back to me in a way that makes her the victim. I'm like no. I was there. It was 5 seconds ago. That didn't happen. I was forced to text her to avoid that. Legit was losing my fucking mind. So at least I had written text to refer too.

She'd go through my phone on the regular and claim if I'm not hiding anything why do I mind.
She been as fkn weird as to spy on me in the shower..wtf And has been verbally, emotionally and physically abusive multiple times. She would then turn into miss innocent and sweet and cater to my every need and act like a servant only to release her demonic personality when I didn't please her.

Friends would always see me stressed, on egg shells around her. Heart was in my throat all the time near this cunt. They asked me if I'm happy. If not leave. And I tried multiple times. Then the hysterical fits happen and the tears and whatever else. All fkn bullshit. I finally broke down. Was at my lowest. In only 2 years she'd done her utmost to literary fuck me inside out. My best friend and others could see it.

I had no idea why I was so down all the time. I was conditioned to believe she was perfect and all that is good. And all our faults lie within me. Subconsciously she had worn me down. This ever feeling of sadness and melancholy was with me from waking to sleep. I didn't realise it was her. So simple.

Light in the darkness. I downloaded reddit. I found this community. Can't explain how much you have all helped

What did it. After reading and lurking on this page, the thoughts and feelings I've had in me. My gut feeling had been given life. I knew I wanted it done, I legit hated her. I felt like Nicole brown and she was O.J.

All that it took, on a Saturday after working 12 hours. Went past my cousin's. Talk shit have a coffee, laugh. Explain how fucked this woman is and how I'm dealing with this shit.

Because I didn't race home right after work she sent me a text. One that I would get on the regular for having the audacity to see a family member or close friend.

"You know what?... you're a cunt"

Red pill kicked in

Boom. We're done.

At first she responded back aggressively. I'm not present I don't care. Then she realised I was more than legit. The tune completely changed. She started begging. Switching from aggressive to passive multiple times over to find the reaction she wants. I was steadfast and unnerved. I finally saw her for what she was. And saw how she was treating me.

What !? No but love and family and...fuck the fuck off cunt. Her family went into panic mode. Blah blah try and that. whatever the fuck try and make it work. Shut up, ciao. Friends try message me saying it's none of my business but she's hurt and fkn waaaaaaah Nope.Done. fuck off. blocked.

Finished. If I see any of them or if any of her family/friends attempt to even look at me, I will bitch slap them so hard their skin will fly off their fkn face. She's just flipped a switch in me that for a long time had been dormant...And it felt amazing.

I realised it's true; You kick a dog long enough it's either going to die or bite your fucking face off. Be the latter. Don't die.

I've become Django strutting out of the plantation.

Literally everything is different now. My approach to life. My assertiveness. I've found my gift of aggression. I've found my teeth.

I've got my testosterone back. And then some.

Regardless I take responsibility for allowing it to happen. I didn't trust my gut. I didn't at the time have the courage to set the rules. To be the man I should be. I let this cunt walk all over me. She'd convinced me I needed her and will never replace her. That she was doing me a favour loving me.....how the tables switched... I take responsibility. I was wrong. I did the wrong things.

Lesson: learnt.

Now house on the market and "she's really hurt" Takes no responsibility for how she acted but narcissists rarely do. But then is begging on her hands and knees crying and pleading everyday for weeks. Telling me she doesn't get out of bed and can't live without me. When I see her for Property related shit. Cleaning home for photographs before sale. She's wearing make up, best top to show her tits off. Hair done. And she approaches me with the submissive I'm ready to suck your cock for 7 hours straight look and please love me. I ignore her grab the lawn mower while listening to "ain't nothing but a G thang" on my iPod and do my shit and gtfo. I'm laughing all the way back to my other place. (Highly recommend old school G funk btw)

Legit could have put a leash on her and made her be my slave. But I don't want that. I don't want her.

So even though it's tough, you form somewhat of a bond with this person. They're bad for you. She was very bad for me. So I carried through. Cold replies. Unemotional. Like a corporate conversation from my end. I don't want to be with you, we're done. And so on .

Regardless it's all good now. I'm free and honestly. Air tastes good. Music sounds amazing. Food tastes fkn unbelievable. Half a million tonne has been released from my shoulders. Life is better. I won't lose this feeling. I won't lose this freedom.

Just wanted to share that story and say thanks boys. I've realised how much of a fuckhead I was. Funny thing, I was never that way with girls. This one chick did it. Oh and she fucked 20 dudes before me so she defs hit the fucking wall.

I've learnt the hard way. Always

Always

Stick to your guns. Follow your gut and fkn MGTOW

Just to clarify I'm not a hardcore never date women again mgtow type. I still want to fuck women. I enjoy doing it. More or less now going back to hooking up and leaving it there.

For me it's back to the gym, to get into my old pre contest type shape.

Fuck whores on tinder. Already matched with 40 in 4 days. Not that that's a big fkn deal. (Funny cos she always used to sort of put me down to feel unattractive to other women.)

Make my money, travel with the boys or fk it alone. I legit do not give a fuck about these sluts.

Peace and love brothers.

And anyone going through similar shit message me, always down to help.

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