Hi all I’ll cut to the chase. Blocked/ghosted my ex after her childish games, and lack of respect. It’s been a bumpy road so far. I have moments where I feel great and like a new man, then I get periods of remembering her, missing her etc. it’s all bull because I snap back to reality and realized she never loved me. like a man can love someone (awalt). Realized she was BPD. Anyway... now that it’s been a week and I haven’t heard from her, I assume she moved on or found a new guy. Idc. I need to enter monk mode, I read a few things on it here and TRP/Asktrp. I set up hobbies and things for me to do. I made goals I need to achieve short term and long term and I am currently finding routine. I am also dependent on marijuana. Today’s my first day quitting weed so I also feel the withdrawals. I know it won’t be easy or fun. But this is a huge wake up call for me to get my shit together. I believe monk mode is the way to go. I am looking for advice, tips and recommendations from people who been in monk mode or are still here. Also just to vent out!