I mostly just lurk around these parts and over at r/WhereAreAllTheGoodMen but it’s finally time to share my MGTOW story, or “How I learned I was a blue pulled simp and changed that forever by shoving red and black pills down my gullet.”

I’ve dated 5 women. I will start in order and give some details.

  1. K - 24, sweetest girl ever, mosaic Down’s syndrome (yeah, I know... honestly it was hard to tell for a while because she didn’t look that different. She wasn’t stupid, just innocent). Not beautiful but I found her cute and I was her first serious boyfriend. For 2.5 years I waited on her hand and foot. She didn’t want to have sex but we went on hikes and out to eat. She helped pay for things as much as she could. Lived with her dad and got disability. She ended breaking up with me because her “feelings changed” and was with someone else within a year, but I was already starting to realize that it wasn’t going to work out forever so I was t devastated even though getting dumped still hurt. She didn’t want to have sex but she sucked me a few times.

2, G - 31, had POSC, high testosterone and didn’t shave her armpits. Obese but very, very kind. Raging liberal which I didn’t know at first but we never fought and she was educated, intelligent and mature. Lasted 5 months until she told me that the thought of sex made her have a visceral reaction like she was “gutting a deer.” I had to break up with her and I haven’t talked to her since.

  1. A - 29, had so many physical issues I don’t know where to start. You’ll think I’m joking. Her back was deformed into an S shape from scoliosis. She had PCOS (2nd bitch in a row with PCOS, wtf) and was skinny from weight surgery but had TONS of excess skin because she couldn’t afford or didn’t want skin removal surgery. She deep throated quite well and we were gonna “do it” but she broke up with me by text the day after we spent the night together for the second time.

  2. B - 29, she had some form of epilepsy and had part of her brain removed from surgery though I suspect she wasn’t that smart before that either. Hands down the kindest person anyone could know, but told me from the getgo that she had fucked 5 guys (including her last ex a year before) but didn’t want to have sex again until marriage. Couldn’t work or drive, so it’s a good thing her parents are loaded. Anyway, she broke up with me after 5 weeks because I asked for a handjob and she didn’t want to. She broke up with me by text. I know 5 weeks isn’t a long time but she was emotionally needy and not a virgin so I was very hurt that she broke up with me over a handjob. Then again, no sex is a dealbreaker for me (after 5 sexless relationships I can finally admit that to myself) so it wasn’t going to last.

Now I’m focusing on losing weight - 213 - 160/170 and hiking in nature, getting a decent job and living a quiet life. None of the women I’ve dated will find anyone so that makes me very happy.

Anyway, bottom line, being a single, 30 year old male virgin isn’t that bad. I don’t need to be chasing after a cheese filled pussy that 5 other guys got to fuck but now is boarded up. I don’t need to try to please a woman when that same woman doesn’t give a shit about pleasing me. I’m fucking done. Not even mad anymore. I just thought I’d show you that even when you date the bottom of the barrel they will still break up with you because you aren’t “good enough” for them, even though you’re a fucking simp who drives them everywhere, pays for everything and doesn’t even ask for sex. Imagine if I’d spent the last 6 years of my life doing literally anything other than chasing women. I’d be so much better off.

GO. YOUR. OWN. WAY.