I have no intention to go back with my ex-wife, the problem I have is all the traumatizing memories the just pop in my head like a freaking PTSD.

Getting assaulted by my wife, ask help to the police and they laugh at me and told me to go sleep on the couch.

Having the cops called on me because I refuse to pay a hotel, 5 cops come to my home, arrest me for "prevention" just because I am a big guy and she is a small women.

Her friend (girl) punch me when I try to go get my wife in a dance club and after, she put a restrain order on me based on nothing at all. Just to piss me off.

I saw a video last night with 2 actor in public, 1 women and 1 man. The man start abusing the women in public and at least 10 people intervene to stop him. After they switch role, the girl end up pushing the guy in a fence and slap him in the face. People were laughing, they were finding that funny. Nobody freaking did anything. It fucking trigger me so much, I been in the same situation, numerous time, were people, even the police, laugh at me when I was getting assaulted.

I cant fucking defend myself, I know if I do that Ill be the one ending up in jail. All I could do is keep getting assaulted and shut up. I have 5 years of martial training, I train everyday at the gym and she is a 110 lbs skinny girl.

People automatically assume I am the potential abuser.

I have an other question, she left the home and I put a peace order so she stop communicate with me. ALL the fucking fancy brand clothes are still in my apartment, for more than 2 month. What should I do with all this shit? without getting in trouble of course, if it was just me, I would dump all this stuff in the garbage if she don't pick it up.