Hey guys, i just need to get rid of this. Two years ago, i met my ex gf. I thought we would have a very deep connection, since we shared all of our emotional stuff and even though I told her about my depression and anxiety, everything seemed to be okay. She has anxiety disorder too, which made it very difficult for her to do something for her career or social life. It also made it very hard for me to keep all my emotional shit together, because she was very jealous all the time and called me on my phone every evening to tell me how much she was missing me while crying all the time. She also wanted to take a look at my phone everytime i got back from work or when i was in business school and wanted me to explain her why i have the telephone numbers of my female coworkers saved on my phone. I even quit replying to their Texts after some time, just to avoid my gf being so desperate about it.

So I gave her all of my energy, love and care to lift her up, so that she could go to college again. I built her up successfully and soon she began to find new friends and even go out with some people in the evening to drink a couple of beers. Some day she was in the shower as she got a message from a guy I had never heard of. He asked her out to have dinner with him. I didnt confront her when she came back from the bathroom and she never told me about this guy. Someday i asked her if she already had dinner with him. She got very aggressive and shouted at me that I should stop controlling her and that she didnt answer him and that she thought it would not be important to tell me about that because she would only love me and so on.

From that day, we had a lot of fights because i could not trust her anymore. I never really knew what she was doing when she left the house. While giving all my energy to her to lift her up from her anxiety and depression, mine got worse every week. At some point I couldnt go to work anymore, because I had panic attacks all the time. But she didnt care. She was even pissed off when we were out for lunch and i got anxiety.

Some day i was home because of a cold and she was at college. I received a phone call from her and i think her smartphone called me because of siri or bixbi or something recognizing my name from her conversation she had with a classmate about me. I heard them talk about how much she would like to be in a relationship with the guy who asked her out for dinner and that he would be so much better than me, because he would not have anxiety and because her and I wouldnt do anything besides fighting anymore. I quit the call, called her back and told her about what happened three minutes ago.

I never felt more betrayed and hurt in my whole life. I told her what a terrible cunt she was and that I would never want to see her again. She cried and said how sorry she was and that she was just so desperate about us only fighting when we spent time together that she just needed tomtalk to her classmate about it. When I asked her what that had to do with the things she said about the dinner guy, she denied everything. From that day I received messages from her everyday about how much she missed me and how sorry she was and that she would only love me. I, who had lost all of his friends, confidence and mental health to that ungrateful bitch, laying in bed all alone all day everyday missed her a lot.

I was just so emotionally fixed on this peace of crap, that i somehow let her back in my life after some weeks. And that was my big mistake number 2. She promised me to be more thoughtful in dealing with my anxiety and all that and it worked for a little while. But then, suddenly there were no kisses anymore when we were in public. A little bit later she didnt kiss me anymore, even when we were at home. Then the sex got lost, too. She got a cold ass bitch one of a sudden, refusing to talk about the backgrounds of her behavior. This shit got worse every day and I always tried to take care for her, asked her how her day was going, how she was feeling, if she needed something, but i never got any reply. She ignored my texts completely and told me to stop controlling her.

After some more time, my mental status got that bad that I had to call an ambulance because of cardiologic problems caused by stress. So after i confronted her with my feelings and what she obviously was doing to me, she wouldnt take responsibility for her actions and told me that she only got that cold bitch because of MY actions. We broke up after that, i couldnt take that shit anymore. Now, that we are not together anymore, she often sends me text messages about how much she would miss me. One time i got weak and texted back. We had a nice chat about how our day was going and I told her that i would miss her. She ignored that message completely. I called her, trying to ask her why she would tell me how much she misses me everyday, but ignoring it when I tell her I miss her. She told me, she wouldnt have to explain herself, in the most annoyed tone of voice I have ever heard. That was the point where I decided to go my own way. I am 22 years old and a woman my age made me lose all of my enjoyment of life, I lost all of my friends because of her jealousy, my mental health status decreased so bad that i couldnt even go to the supermarket to get some food. I lost all of my energy and even got a seriously sick heart from all this shit.

Guys...

Please dont ever give these heartless beasts what you are and what you have. Everything you will get in exchange for all of your love, energy, money and time will be a shitload of trouble, pain, maybe a desultory blowjob once a month but that‘s it.

I feel so bad and even hate myself a little for loving and caring for this stupid cunt. I put all of my health, energy, money and time in her and got nothing back that would even be slightly worth having.

I will do a psychotherapy now and I will fight my way back to life. And I swear, I will never ever let one of these animals eat my heart, mind, soul, time and money again.

And I hope so do you!

(By the way, please excuse all the curse words, i never said things like that to my ex bitch and I just had to get rid of all the hate in my brain)