Longtime lurker after a heavy divorce that left me with two broken kids, sent me to hell but I found MGTOW. Made a come back and became the best version I've ever been.

I have always had a strong career, I make very good money and have a very prestigious position in a financial institution. I manage a hierarchy of over 100 people. I got serious about health, lost weight and upgraded style. Changes were immediate, I slept with a string of women - it was incredibly easy, I have a desirable lifestyle and enough cash to back it up.

But I let my gaurd down and self down this year. I let it slip. I met her at a bar near work, a very innocent looking girl almost 10 years younger than I am. Nothing special looks wise, average style but we hit it off.

We became regular fuck buddies, usually Fucking after work or even during work hours at a hotel. The sex was amazing, she is incredibly experienced and isn't afraid to take charge. I was hooked, we got closer but kept it about the sex.

One afternoon during lunch she told me about her ex, they'd rekindled and had been seeing eachother often. I made nothing of it, I didn't care if my fuck buddy had a bf. Thkngs got serious between them, as she told me more about him I started to feel sorry for him. I saw myself in him (my wife cheated on me)

The guilt got to me and I broke it off, but things took a quick turn for the worse. She threatened to expose me, to tell my colleagues and kids about us, fetishes, drugs, some unethical actions at work I had told her about. She didn't ask for anything in return, just that we kept seeing each other. I stayed.

She became more controlling during sex. I loved it. But felt worse after. She owned me. I've become a shell of a man. Drinking more, confidence gone, binge eating. The guilt was getting to me.

Shes recently been occupied with her bf and it's given me the mental clarity to realise what I have become. Disgusted with myself, with what my son would think of me I decided to end it.

Today I told her it's over, she brushed it off and said she'll be in touch when she wants me again. I am filled with rage.

I intend on letting her bf know who she really is. I know more about him than I'd like. I'm going to send him the message that would have saved me when I was in his shoes.

It's time to break free. Thank you all for this amazing sub.

Fuck you whore. Fuck your cheap clothes. Fuck your shitty job. Fuck your sick fetishes.