I have been told I'm special in other ways. Not specifically the word, "SPECIAL", but it can be told in other ways. And it got me to think, I'm of noble blood, or that I'm so special. I'm not either. It went on for years, until things weren't adding up, and I was failing at relationships and even my academic studies.

I realized, people will fuck you up, muck you up, whether they're consciously aware or not. In all my years, I was lied to. I'm not complaining. But I am angry. Still angry now. I am doing something about it too. But note, my experiences has taught me, hard shit, and it's brutal red-pill. Shocks, even.

Teachers, police, fathers, mothers, and even those in office positions, (politicians, and whatnots, though, I'm not against them, but I'm staying the fuck away from them. Liberals and Republicans are NOT on my sides.), are socially conditioned and will not understand you. They can be red-pilled, I find, but they're not even socially aware of it.

I remembered watching national graphic channel, how elephants are trained to think they still have chains on their ankles, even though it was already taken off weeks ago. Even months, years even.

I realized now, people are after your mind and body.

I already accepted I was born blue-pill in this modern world, and have no malice for those who are, and were. I do notice, though PUAs have malice for those who didn't want to chase women, prefers to have useful, manly skills, and it only reminds them bitterly, because they were blue-pill before.

Again, I don't have any malice. But I do have malice against weakness. I hate weakness. I admire strengths. I am constantly finding weakness from PUAs and Red Pills, because all they ever care about is getting pussies. And they do not harbor any worthy skills, other than sex. Sex is sex. Any man can get it. Look, I don't care if you get women. That's fine. I don't care. But if I find you have nothing worthy to offer, other than sex advice, NO SKILLS at all, you are worth LESS than strong slaves. You are the weak slaves.

I'm still angry. I've stop complaining though. Complaining was useless, and it's not doing me any good. It's useless. But I found other ways, to make myself useful, and I decided to keep silence. I went out often, and things were adding up, but in clearer visions, and it was working. I've accepted, that I was born blue-pill, and was restrained with modernity. I've accepted that I'm not of noble blood, but I can be something else. I have resources available, and I have felt fire in me.

I'm not angry at the past anymore, but I am angry enough to thrive, and survive. I've found my happiness and that's being MGTOW. There's a lot I don't understand, but I will break them, bit by bit.

I have so much fire, I had to control it. I had to hide. And I prefer hiding what I can do. Sometime, though, I get little too overt, and I just go with it. I know people are paying attention, but I had to keep going. Even girls noticed it, and they tried not to get seen by me. Yes, I like girls. I have a huge desire for them. But my past experiences taught me, that I can't love them. And I want to fuck them. I still like girls, but they cannot love a man, the way a man love a woman. I will still fuck them, but they're not my path.

Breaking this notion of being noble, was the hardest shit. And reality from a hard breakup with a girl, fucking broke me. Four years. I didn't know if I was ever going to survive. Now. I know.

Nobility is mundane. Every man is replaceable, and no one is of noble blood.

From my commentary in other post:

This constant shit of "breeding my lines" is weak imitation of the spirit of "being alpha", which is just a concept spewed by women themselves (Alpha fucks, Beta bucks), and even PUAs have no control of it, because they didn't invent it themselves. They are not alphas themselves, either. Women knows who is genuinely authentic, and keep quiet, because they have tingles for the guy who is sexually uncontrollable, rather than just play the game (reactionary). Not only that, the guy doesn't need to chase women, because they are plenty of them out there; plus, he doesn't care. He is not tied to pussy. Only PUAs care to chase women, using game (reactionary), but they're not authentic, and they're not honorable, because they would betray other men, just for women. And PUAs are tied to them. Especially, so-called red-pillers. Getting women is fine. But betraying other men is NOT. Betraying is a serious offense, and I'd kill them for betraying. Look, I like women as the next guy, but I don't LOVE THEM. This is why I'm MGTOW. I love going my own way. I feel peace this way.

There are men I want to thank, even though I've never met them. I will get what I want. And they will get out of my way.