Short guy, not muscular, not good looking, cargo pants, still skateboard as much as possible at age 33, pretty much in poverty by most standards, live in basement w pops, finally got a car after not having one for almost 10 years, literally nothing attractive about me, maybe one of the more unsexy combos that could exist.

Just kinda sad, knowing I will never be respected or really appreciated by women, no matter what I accomplish, I can never be this impossible ideal that women have. Honestly, it is depressing,

Luckily, guys like me are kinda spared from a lot of the bullshit by being totally unattractive to females. Though every few years one manages to creep into my life, usually because some kind of status I recieve from someone else who will trigger a chain reaction of attention from women, who are wholly uninterested in me as a person, and only concerned about obtaining external validation from other women, who for whatever reason at the time all of a sudden develop some weird desire for me.

Up to this point I have always fallen for the trap, and always got cheated on or burned somehow.

And now over a year and a half in monk mode again. I know this time when the bitches come howling once my business starts to crush ( my main competition in the area is closing down and moving to Vegas, this bitch actually was failing her business, and instead of picking her rotting bones clean then and there, my partner and I decide to help save her business. We went viral, saved the business, made a heap of money basically overnight. And about a month later this bitch kicks me to the curb, and I had to start over again, where I am now on the cusp of real success again) I will be aware of the inauthentic attention that will surely come as it has been the pattern throughout my life.

This time i will break the pattern by not letting some hoe drag me into depression and suicidal tendencies, i will focus on growing my business and working on being my best skateboarder, these things are important to ME!

I will do it for myself, and for other men young and old as an example of how to live in this age of lies, and manipulation, I will be an example of a man fulfilled by my own desire, my own ambition, my own will, and ideas and execution.

I will have no time for emotion wasted on women.