I just wanted you to know that I can definitely say I took a step forward towards becoming a monk: I no longer need/try/regret-not to hang out with (supposed) friends, male or female. I got tired of being criticized about my choice and realized I just don't need them, if I need help I'm happy to pay/work for experts/people to be there for me. It took some work though: I felt like I literally went through a detox period, removing all past delusions and imprintings I got from society (you need friends, you need this and that and so on). I'm a peaceful person I'm not a sociopath, I just feel way better now that I CAN SAY NO. Thank you for your time. S