Women. Sigh. Here's my situation: Almost 26 yo, but still basement dweller. Obviously working, but not earning enough to decently live on my own (living in post soviet country in middle/easter Europe doesn't help). So I'm still living in a flat with my parents. Had a few relationships, and last one, two years ago was a reall blessing. I was told that I was never loved and I was cheated on with ugly, yet rich and foreing man, who had money. That relationship teached me that women really are pursuing money and 'social security' above all else in life. I also learned that I'm not cut to be a 'proper boyfriend'. I'll write what I mean by that in a second.

And here I am now. 1,5 months ago I began writting a random girl on the internet. (my job can be really boring, but I can't do anything more that from time to time texting to kill time, even reading on a phone is too much focus consuming) We're writting and all is well, she seems to be captivated by my knowledge of music, my intelligence and quirkiness in thoughts, etc. One day we went into 'relationship talks'. And suddenly she shot that she's falling in love for me. I was dumbfounded, never even seen her despite few picutres and same goes for her about me. But ok, I calmly presented to her why I'm not a proper material for a boyfriend.

A little break to present her: She's 18yo, from higher class, living in a newly builded house in 100+yo style in the middle (!) of our country second-to-most expensive city, have a soild family, her parents even bought and gave her a flat (which is a big deal, it would took me 30 YEARS with my current salary to buy something like that, and only if I spent 100% of my monthly payment), but they're renting it till she became grown up enough to move out from family home. She's a cutie, very meek, intelligent, but not really outspoken.

So I presented her a short list of why I'm not a proper boyfriend material:

1 - I just hate doing 'maitenance' house stuff. Fixing washing machines, puting some plaster and paint on walls - I hate that. Noise, dust, mess. 2 - Social life - I don't like going out and hanging out with people 3 - Car - i don't own any (obviously), nor do I have a driving license. I was trying to do one, but I was so bad and it felt so bad for me, that I never went bad after spectacularily failing first exam 4 - kids. Sometimes I like to play with them, but I passionatelly don't want to have any. Ever. 5 - Work - I'm earning really small amout of money, but... It fits my lifestyle. I pay a 'rent' to my mother, so I have a place to sleep and what to eat and I don't have any particullar ambitions to seek any 'higher style' life. All I want is to have a peace of mind. Eat, sleep, focus on my hobbies and work not more than needed - and don't need to think about job after workhours. 6 - traveling. I don't like them. A mere thought of 'going for a week long trip (especially with someone) is not only 'meh', it's truly repulsive for me 7 - families. Families are usually just a bunch of people you don't really like, but you're binded by blood, so you socially 'have to' stick with them. That's why I evade any big family meetings. And we're speaking about my family, it would be even worse in case of my partners family. 8 - I would have to be accepted as a boyfreind by my partners family. Considering the points 3, 5 and 7 it's highly unlikely.

And after reading all of that she said... that she didn't even thought about most of that stuff. Privileges of being young.

But I stayed, keep texting her, we even started seeing each other. And it's an enjoyable time (but it kinda pains me, that it takes me from my hobbies). So enjoyable, that I might... have started falling for her too. And it's scary. What scares me the most is a unicorn syndrome. I'm visiting r/mgtow once a week or so, reading most spicy threads. But since I met her I started to NAWALT a lot.

Let's take that statement from "What shocked you most about women?" thread:

"How they don't feel love the same way we do. They see us as utilities; even your own mother. You're a provider of status, tingles, labor, validation, money. She can love any of the above things, but she can't love you; the human being. The weak cannot love the strong. They can lust, like, and respect the strong; but they cannot love. Love is a male emotion."

And I'm like...that's totally not true. I can't think about any single thing she might want to excavate from me.

So yeah, what do you think? Is she simply too young to became AWALT, pure and untouched by cruelness of her own nature? What would you do in my situation? What are the ways to redpill me again? I know that I'm not a proper memeber of this society, since I'm not into 'building my own life', I'm more like 'living on lowest effort possible', but still - it's my, male, own way of living.