A while ago i posted my story about getting my own place. This is a kind of update about my ups and downs.

It took a long time to get the finances seperated. I always blamed her for spending all my money.. after handling it all myself, i had to shoot her an apology. All the times i was stressed about money and not knowing why things were so bad, she was in the background making sure everything got paid, somehow.

My child support pays her rent then she kicks back the extra i pay to me when she gets paid (rent is due on my pay day not hers). So after two lots of rent and all the bills and car payments my $2700 clear a fortnight goes down to fucking $400 the next day. I struggled, thought of suicide again "i work too damn hard to be this broke". It was close.

I did some digging and found out that in 5 months most of my ongoing debt is clear. Thats $375 a fortnight back in my bank. Yay. There is some light at the end of the tunnel.

I managed to switch to rolling my own smokes which is saving me a bunch and i am not eating out. I rekon i will be just fine. It has been hard. And the damn lonliness has led me to having conversations with the cockroaches that inhabit the only place i could afford.

All in all, i am still happier with my life now. I dont go out. I dont do much of anything except work, really. But the most important thing.. i never do anything that i do not want to do.

Even with how bad the finances are at tje moment.. i can finally see myself being able to buy that farm i always wanted.

Thanks for reading if you got this far. No awalt. No fire and rage. Just a bloke doing his best to try go his own way.