So today I had dinner with colleagues, because we won some prizes for best franchise. There is 1 girl, 22 years old, half Caucasian half Indonesian (my favourite mix) that recently quit the job. She is a solid 8 and she shows lots of signs of interest. I know she gets wet because I have money. Then her girlfriend says that she was hoping I would be there. This was said in front of the whole group of total 8 women. I was kind of perplexed. Although I have had several experiences like this before in the past, so I could handle it better. I always declined offers.

One moment I went to get coffee and the girl comes with me. Then another colleague comes along and cockblocks me obviously. With a red pill lens it's fucking funny to see this happening. Anyways we go back and she sits next to me and we talk a bit. She says she wants to have children before she's 28 years, but first wants to focus on her career. When we are about to finish she asks me if we will see each other again some time in the future.

As a 38 year old I have to say it is very tempting to ask for her number and move forward. However don't know if I want to put in the energy, time and money for probably low return. I like my peace and quiet too much. On the other hand I am not sure yet if I want children yet. I definitely don't want a 30+ year old to be the mother. I already made the decision that if I didn't find a suitable woman before I am 40 I go celibate and quit entirely. This is probably the last opportunity for me to have children as I don't want to be too old for that.

I am inclined to at least have a friendship as starters to look for red flags. Personally I don't want to pump and dump. I don't give too much fucks about sex anymore anyways. Definitely I won't get married. I don't know why the fuck I am posting this, just needed to write this.