Hi ya all, what keeps you going in dark times. I am having my now, various health issues that plague me, no justification of the reality of life. I try to enjoy the small things, but my health remindes me how fucked up reality is. The idea of me depending on the healthcare system for life... Fuck, but I guess since parasites can leach of it(you know who they are), I guess I have a right, too. Even though the healthcare system is bad in it self, how it's run(it's not western).

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But the goal of becoming an off-grider or joining the army is off-limits now, what that leaves me with is trying to work and office job and start small improvements in my life as much as I can to fight the chaos. But I am not the type of guy who does not see a clear chance of improving my life quality in the long run, also seeing there is no cure for my conditions, only managment. With what does that leave me mental and psychical suffering and don't see why I got these cards in life, there is nothing much I can play with them...

Do you find meaning in suffering, like V. Frankel find in his?