I know this sub is about not persueing women,but I find that impossible. I work at a drive thru convenient store right now,and have for since October. I had over a 1000 dollars at one time and was so close to getting a car but then Christmas came and my daughters bday ,and I went on a date with this girl I met and my money went down a lot. Then I wasted a lot trying to win the lottery again, it's been hard to not play lottery at all because I could use the 300.

Anyways I'm feeling defeated and suicidal again. I cant save money to get a car to get another job. Now theres this cute younger sexy smelling good girl at my work. And I have big attraction toher,it kind of hurts just working with her,talking about what she did with her man the day before and how she got a cramp doing different positions. And how hes the best thing ever. And hes a big guy with fake looking teeth,and they have their own place and he has like 4 cars. Not only her,I have attraction to all kinds of women who come through. I have asked girls that come through at work a good amount of times in the first couple months working there and it was all rejections. Bad rejections. So I tried in a way to these sisters that came through. That are usually talkative and nice to me. The one sister is skinny with twins and she has a ring on her wedding finger,so the other sister wasnt there and I said is your sister single,she goes yeah I said can you tell her I said shes pretty and she gave me a weird look like I'll tell her. The next day I didnt see either come in which is not normal. It's like if I cross that line for a girl I'm attracted to it's all bad. I feel hideous ,I notice a lot of people dont even look at me every time they come in.

Just asking for advice what I can do to fix these problems. I hate that I have to deal with this pain every day.