So I’ve been red pilled since age 17. I’m 21 now. I’ve had a good amount of experience with women and life, I’ve been in just about every good and bad situation you can imagine (if anyone’s interested I will share, some fucked up 3rd wave feminism stuff I got dragged into #metoo).

Anyways, I had to move back into my parents home after being on my own for 2 years. I went to Texas A&M for a semester at age 19 but something shitty happened there and I was expelled. I had my life on track and planned out to that point but it all got derailed because of that. After that I lived on my own working crap jobs 7 days a week to make all my payments and have spending money.

Now I’ve always dealt with a lot of anxiety. I have a few medical problems which make it worse, so even when I’m not mentally anxious, the feelings are still there physically. This has caused me to withdrawal more in. I don’t want to get another shitty job, but I absolutely do want to move out. I’d love to go back to school but I havn’t been in 2 years, so I’m pretty rusty. And I also have no idea what I’d want to do. I’m really into fitness and all that jazz but why go to school for that?

Right now I’m pretty depressed and unmotivated. I don’t know what to do with my life. Ever since I got expelled from school I’ve just been going through life trying to make it with no real goal or passion. I’ve had substance abuse issues from self medicating and dealing with my depression from having my life turned around.

I’m not blaming anyone else for anything or not taking responsibility. The thing is I want to take the reins back and get my shit together. I’m ready. I need to just get up and overcome all I’ve been through because it’s the past. The problem now for me is where do I start? Should I go back to school, get a job, look into trade school, take coding classes? What will get me the best bang for my buck? I’m willing to do the work, I need to start being a man again and I despise living with my parents as I also feel like a burden.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated.