I'm in my early twenties. If I were to evaluate my appeal dispassionately I'd say I'm strictly ordinary. Not once has ever expressed a desire to be involved with me romantically. I do experience the primordial desire to love and be loved.

Friends with whom I spent a lot of time are aloof. Theyve become inhospitable once they got girlfriends. They stay away from me. Hardly any friend calls me let alone meeting me. This undoubtedly saddens me.

I see friends enjoy an electric chemistry with their partners. I experience a sinking feeling. There's not one person who would be concerned if I were to disappear tomorrow.