Warning: long post

I say giant void because for the last 8 years of my life I dedicated it to improving myself so I can have a wonderful woman to enjoy life and procreate with.

I was successful. Being a 6'4 guy built like an offensive line man with great body posture, I was easily the shiniest object in the room to catch womens attention.

So succesful I developed my own date routine and coached a few friends in it, even wrote it down in a book. Planned on publishing it but got in a two year ltr and just didn't think it was appropriate. Now I've lost the taste for it.

With that said, I've dated some amazing women, and all of them took me for granted or just very disrespectful. Thats what hurts the most. These bitches aint worth it!

I've developed myself to the point where I'm one helluva catch, great in many ways, easily top 15% of men, and yet all I have seen from women are their true nature!

I've developed a theory that a woman's greatest accomplishment in life are the men that she has fucked, and I'm tired of giving unworthy women that validation.

I guess it wouldn't be so bad if everything in society wasn't focused on women. I find this subreddit to be a refuge for my train of thoughts. For that I thank you guys.

I no longer have a desire to date women. 31 years of my mind seeking the mythical love of a woman, now I know it's just a myth and it's time for me to focus only on me.

Honestly, I feel drained or in a numb kind of state. Almost empty. With time I'll build my true self up, and I find inspiration from y'all.