Hello, I am 20 years old and constantly have problems involving women, even though I constantly ignore them and have had nothing but problems whenever I get involved with them, I seem to want to feel physical touch. And not in the way a lot of you would think, sex is easy to get, if you have around $500, you can get sex, thats not what I am talking about. Fuck sex, its overrated.

What I am talking about is having someone to sleep next to and cuddle with and talk to and kiss and you get the idea. I was able to do this with my first and last girlfriend, who wasn't that bad but didn't last nearly long enough for anything bad to happen, but it was when I was 18. It was so comfortable and so nice to have that feeling of being with someone and having someone you actually like touch you. Problem is, society has actively chosen to allow women to act as fucking awful as they possibly can, using their social standing and legal standing to do so, in full force. They hate you more than you can possibly imagine and most of the stuff they do they aren't actually consciously doing, but are just acting like how they have been taught to act. This feeling is a rare and fleeting one, that almost no man under the age of 35 is able to feel anymore, which is sad but hey, at least we aren't sexist and we can get our dick sucked without marriage, right? :D

I've tried to cope in different ways. The closest thing I was able to do to get this same feeling of comfort and acceptance is through opioids, which were a bitch to quit and I don't plan on going back to. Now its booze but that seems to just be another addiction which I will have to quit too. Its hard to find a cope that really works.

I tried to actually find a girlfriend a while ago. If you are below a 8/10, you basically have to be perfect and also let her thot around. She isn't yours, just a girl you pay for. I have a few friends who have girlfriends and its pathetic. One even told me its expected that they was going to cheat on you, its just how it is. And they deal with it because sex is so overvalued and overpriced, and they also don't want to be alone. Even for guys over an 8/10 theres problems with their women sleeping with other high value guys or what have you. You can't win with them. I would rather be single then deal with this stuff.

As you can probably expect, this feeling of loneliness, sadness and anger has left me feeling depressed and leading to random drug related copes to, well, cope with it. I really hate life whenever I am alone and think about it because I do feel subhuman and awful but at the same time I know its not completely my fault. There's nothing I can do, no matter how bad I want it, that can make that fantasy a reality. Human connection is fucking dead.

Anyone have a fix for this? How do some of you deal with it?