I am in a relationship and marriage is on the horizon. We don't have kids nor do we want any.

I had an epiphany moment yesterday night. We had a fight. Stupid thing actually. I wanted to show her some stupid video on my iphone in bed, something funny that was on reddit's main page. At one point I hit the back button and for a glimpse of a second there was a porn pic on the screen.

My gf was pissed and hurt. Thing is - we have been together for 6 years now and the sex has dropped significantly. Thinking about it, it's such a classic thing you read it again and again. I explained to her that maybe me looking at porn is a result of us not really having much sex anymore.

Anyway. That was not the thing that brought me here. Something else is. The fight got physical. She attacked me. Nothing serious - she just got loud and hit me. She is rather short and weak so I wasn't in a position to get hurt. I tried to calm her down and at one point I grabbed her wrist and told her to be quiet "or do you want to shout our whole neighborhood out of their sleep?".

And she said: "Yes. Maybe they call the police and I get them to take you away."

That was the moment were I realized what's going on in my world.

Thanks for listening. I hope this is somewhat on topic - I have only a vague understanding of MGTOW so I am not entirely sure.