I’m just writing to say as my eyes wake up more and More everyday I’ve becoming very numb and non reactive to things lately. Everything around me is fake. Self improvement is the only thing that keeping me alive feels good to have a purpose as I would be lost without it. Now I would say I’m just getting past the rage part & I would definitely tell you I can’t go back. I don’t know how others do it but I can’t, I mean I even tired but my body and mind is like no this the truth don’t run away from it.

It sucks especially when everyone around you is simps & beta af and just not into self improvement. Literally feel like a alien. So don’t fear others becoming alpha. TRUST ME 80% or even 85-90% of men who are learning the MGTOW & RED PILL are not actually using it in real life there deadass just talking about it to make them feel like there doing something with no action. Pretending there Alpha in front of people and simping behind close doors. Still chasing women. I’m talking I’ve spread knowledge to 50 year old buddy I work with all he did was basically pretend instead of doing what I told him or what he says, he deadass tries to hind his beta actions like I’m his father still acting like a lil boy, it’s crazy a men that are 40’s and up is unaware & actually if they are they choosing and loving to be beta. There really think getting pussy is like the best thing in life especially if they making there girl cheat for boost points. Not knowing your not the first guy she did that with & your not special and the only one who’s winning is her she goes back to her bf/ husband and she still cooks for him and serves him to get what he provides & got good dick from you for free while you paid or paid with your time. While you got nothing but pussy and your energy drained. Lmao idiots

Now I would say I don’t hate women and when they around me my body react naturally into the Alpha mindset as I trained myself to be, the lessons I learned don’t leave my mind when I see a girl especially a pretty one. And I’ll say this I get a lot of pussy thrown at me because of me being more alpha/ masculine especially how my body looks and face. (Working out etc) but going as far as sleeping with women is really pointless to me because I’m not where I want to be and they only take energy from me. Yeah I could just enjoy the moment but that’s not important me right now and we all know they don’t truly give af about you just what you can offer either I’m boosting her confidence or I’m giving her attention that she wants from another guy or just me but either way pointless. My only focus is starting my business and chasing my higher self at all cost. I sacrificed my friendship with friends, family and More and they all dislike me because I’m being selfish I mean I know deep inside when I’m successful they going to forget about all that shit when I went ghost trust me who’s going to say no to a boat party or a trip out of the states or a vacation etc. it’s all a test. Believe in yourself, have real confidence and you will win.

P.S about penis size I have a above average penis and I look like a chad and I’ll tell you MGTOW is still amazingly better even with having options of women. But back to penis size I can touch the back of a women’s vagina and it doesn’t change anything women are crazy brothers. In her mind it’s this: oh he’s big and he’s beta even better. He’s alpha and he’s big? Well if I can get one I can get other. Basically if you have a big one in her mind she like your not the only one if your average if she wants a big one she going to get one behind your back or in front of face. If you have a big one some girls like a average better or even small one. It’s all preference. You can never make her happy or anyone people change everyday even there moods don’t have expectations if you decide to engage. Just enjoy the moment and keep focusing on your purpose as soon as she or family or friends leave your sight. That’s all folks. KEEP IT UP THE GOOD WORK BOYS, MEN WIN AT THE END, MEN LEAD AT THE END, WE ARE THE KINGS!! But if you want to keep those people around it’s the moments you create with them even if it goes bad, trust me when you create great moments they’ll always think about you.