I’ve been on this journey for a couple years now. I can’t say it’s been up and down because it hasn’t. Once I learned the teachings within these subs I never looked back, it’s just been a constant increase in knowledge and my life has flourished because of it. Everything’s better, my job, my family, my home, shit even the food taste better.

At a young age I started experimenting with sex, I’ve always been decent looking, a decent height and played sports so my physique was sporty. Never had issues with getting women.

I was raised by a single mother so my issue was commitment. I seen what my father did to my family and I never wanted to do to a family what he did to mine. I always kept women at arms length for years. For years I was a narcissist, only cared for myself never giving a shit about anyone but number one. Where’s the problem? Exactly that’s not a problem, the problem came when I found a very attractive women.

This female was everything I’d ever wanted cute, voluptuous, HL like myself, willing to do everything I wanted, listened, submitted. She was the women when I’d close my eyes she would be there.

In the beginning I seen the red flags but I was so blinded by her sexual energy I just had to have her. Over the years I tried to separate from her but eventually we made a family.

Eventually I submitted, that’s when the issues started to arise. My world was her world. My life decisions were based on her wants, my job, my business, my future all tied into her. I will say I did a pretty good fucken job, her salary increased, her position increased, even her education.

The one thing that didn’t increase was my needs. I’ve always been content with who I was, I’d drive older cars, dress down, old clothes, shoes shit, never even worried to much about pay. “I was working as a team, right?”

After our income gap getting further and further away from each other. Shit changes, shit changed in her and shit changed in me. It became a shit show, and one of huge life changing events. I eventually started pushing and so did she.

We separated and after two decades of providing for a family I was on the street looking a new Home. I found one, first a physical one and after that I found Mgtow a spiritual one.

Here’s my list of inspirational material that helped me on this journey, I’ll share them with you but please share your list so other men can find the path.

Spestnaz YouTube videos, almost his whole catalog is very insightful for my situation.

The Rationale Male, Rollo showed me exactly what I was doing right and then what I was doing wrong. I have the paperback and audio book that I go through monthly.

The 48 laws of power, this book has helped in all my life. Family, job, people, it’s just a whole handbook on how to navigate life and all the issues we face daily. I also own paperback and audio which I go through monthly.

To get a quick dose of mindset material I go through YouTube content. Here’s my list.

EIC: entrepreneurs in cars

Howard dare

Sandman

There is so much great information out there for you men. The game of life is the most important game you’ll ever play. Do you want to go out there blind? Take a few hours a week to study about it. Since I discovered this material it’s become a passion. I try to digest as much as I possibly can. Keep the good throw out the bad, Good luck men.